DEAR DIARY
today, I have spiritually gone through: “ a very weird curtain”/ leaving all the chains and the quagmire of my existence behind. To arrive in “a woman’s world”/ where there are women “plain and simple”; who tell me, that I am in fact all female spiritually now/ and will never return to male. Even if the body of time suggests otherwise, heart and soul will not obey them. They are “forever changed”. A new person, on a new journey, which will have different rewards and struggles to survive. No man or male or disguise is allowed; the consequences are eternal; and it will be Hades. No perversion exists; the body decides: NOT you.
But that leaves the question: what does female truly mean? And how: am I suppose to live being female, in a body that is not “as it should be”? The answer is: “change has only begun”; patience, and honesty, are required.
“the curtain” became some kind of impenetrable/ insurmountable wall: there is no middle ground left here. Only “all female now”.
This is the second day now; and reality begins to address the truth, that male is now dead/ if all female is true. While it is clear; I do feel truly different, and strange even; the cost of death did bring a tear or two. Which leaves the conclusion; the last of life as male, is then a ghost; without power or a say, in life defined by time, at all. Or the more deliberate reality is: not only does the spiritual woman who invaded my life over 21 years ago “own everything now/ she is everything of time now too”; taking possession of me!
The question of me, is whether or not, I can be “melted into her”/ or will simply vanish as time goes on? No longer male means; it is now, her choice. The question is then: does spirit rule life? The answer revolves around truth, and ends with truth rules life; even when you refuse to acknowledge it; as would then be called “Karma”/ or there are consequences, even if you won’t admit to it. So truth led me to a “woman’s world”/ and truth began to take over my life immediately thereafter/ and truth does not allow, for my truth to escape. So the consequence remains: the spiritual world shall not be denied its truth.
But question exists: CAN SHE, orchestrate female, in a mostly (tits) male body? Truth allows; by taking complete control over male; she can. So apparently, some degree of male, she controls; is left to exist; in order for time to remain true. I DO NOT know what the future holds/ simple as that. The job of male is done/ therefore he is finished; what female does is her own decision.