Religion

RELIGION means many things to many different people; all of whom have their own ideas of about what is fair and right and real. To explain or deny or rule as they intend life should be.

CHRISTIANITY is a variant, which uses the life of JESUS as the evidence of what love and hate both mean to our living and our societies. But with that is the testimony; GOD OUR CREATOR did not simply create us/ to abandon us all. But in fact has an open door to those who choose to love and accept truth by law with respect.

Within these two basic principles his entire religious teaching exists.. Even if the search for life itself, can be further explained by his life. As for religion itself; two distinct principles exist.

So we look to these elements of living, and define: WHAT is the meaning; of JESUS being called SAVIOR? Religion adds savior of the world. So we ask WHAT is the definition of savior? Its response is simply: to accept the task, of being someone who does not fail to keep the others alive.

The reality is then: that JESUS did keep humanity itself alive, by providing the honesty of love is a choice. By presenting hate in this world is primarily the result of greed. By altering the presented state of human life as is: “dead and gone”/ is changed with eternal life for those who love instead. And in this way, he did become savior of our world. By aiding and abetting the foundations which kept love alive, and in fact presented it to an entire world; as their own choice. Even if there were costs, hard to bear.

Religion however goes on to say: JESUS “took away our sins”? So the question is then: WHAT does sin mean? By its definition sin is: to discard respect for life and all this creation of living/ by saying it has no, or little; value to you. Disrespecting all the work, and all the elements required for life to survive; because you are too proud to admit: life is a gift.

Humanity adds: “i want what I want/ and I don’t want no damn death to take it all away”. I believe what I want, and I don’t believe no damn believing in the dead will rise again: a rotting carcass proves that wrong. But lets review: people with an apparent “good body”/ just lay down and die. And we know the body is dead: BECAUSE LIFE HAS PASSED AWAY from that body, “to somewhere else”. Therefore we know, that while time for that body is clearly gone/ what happened to the life which caused it to live, is a mystery. Which is where religion gets its start; trying to explain where did life go?

We then return to “sin”/ and ask: if humans don’t have any respect for living or the love which built them, and allowed the time to search for their own identity? What will happen to them when they die? The answer was given by JESUS; within the words, “I never knew you”; and that life will vanish of its own accord. Because it cannot sustain itself. While hate has several levels of punishment for causing harm or more hate to arise. Love has few; being mercy for those who are not considered to be enough. And purity for those who are. Because love lives for friendship and value. While purity seeks a destiny which will not corrupt life itself. Because corruption is the descent into oblivion.

 

MERCY gives to JESUS the decision of what will come next.

We are all then presented with the decision: to let love rule our lives, with its values, grace, and freedoms through truth, and the elevation of trust! OR, to let hate confront love, and try to kill it if they can. OR to want what you want, and then vanish from the living once dead; corrupted too much to survive.

Humanity says: “who dares to judge me/ I am the superior one”. But truth says: it will judge you/ and all will know; if you are a liar.

The question of JESUS is then: having presented what love would do for life and world, “are you love/ or not”?

Presenting what greed coupled to hate would do. Are you hate and its greed, apathy to life, disrespect for work, arrogance or superiority over others; etc: or not?

And by understanding the frailty of human existence when struggling among hate; humanity is called sheep. Because you refuse to decide, and must be herded into anything beyond time. Wanting never to decide, as is sitting on the fence; between love and hate. Alas beyond time; only truth decides: there is no maybe or claim to not be sorry or other. Only truth decides, and if you have made no truth within you/ living only as animals do. Then you will receive their fate as well: which is life as well as time, will simply end. “you had your day, in the light”; and chose your truth.

While it is clear and certain: “One woman to one man dedicated to each other is always best”. It is noted and written; that Jesus slept in the same tent with 7 women; and his disciples become jealous. Or the decisions of the human herd do not matter, when life rises above the fray. What we know is; they were not judged wrong. But that does not mean any other man would be capable of the same. Eternity seeks a balance, in forces which enable life.  I “think” they were his balance, to all things wrong! The spiritual world said of me: it is female who will lead you. Or “eternity is not for you to decide”. But destiny is; and I have no clue at all; how my existence will end. Its complicated.

as for the religion in me: I choose to accept what is true will decide, basically everything. I accept GOD IS REAL, as all the evidence of this earth, and this body points to a CREATOR; as is testified to the fact, “only thought, by law” can do this.

I accept JESUS IS SAVIOR, because the truth of my life is; “less than perfect”/ and I do cherish love, as did HE.

I accept; that eternity is possible; because life says so.

I accept; that we all have a freedom to choose our identity, and in fact we must; or we die same as time.

I accept; “judge not, lest you be judged”; and I don’t want that.

I accept; in our time on earth, we must choose what we desire most of all, because it does create our destiny. What I have desired most is; that this entire world of life will continue to exist; as best it can. So, seeing the evidence of extinction; I chose to discard the rest, to fight for this world by law; good or bad is irrelevant; I did what I could do.

I accept: STRANGE AND WEIRD though it may be; that the spiritual world and I have become entangled in ways I would never have dreamed of. Making every design of mine for a future I would predict; completely worthless, and lost forever. Just how it is; and I have no conception at all; of how it will all turn out for me. If you change you live/ if you refuse you do not; so how it turns out for this world; is predictable. Because the games you play, are dead.

The end result being: truth will decide for us all. Even the people like me, who no longer have a true and certain identity.

Or, who knows maybe astrology isn’t all wrong; as is born “gemini” perhaps half of me is male and the other half female? I am absolutely without a clue.

I accept: that eternity is a place of forces, that are governed by laws which must be kept. That we are elementally aligned with force in order to have movement and freedoms of choice. That we become enabled to survive that world, by being invited into it; “not the choice of anyone”. Not your world or mine.

The critical question is not “how big or small could we be”? But how happy will living create in our own lives as we share the love that is invited to live in this; “our dimension of life”. I find it true, there are many dimensions isolated from each other, and accessible only to the pure. Because life must not be corrupted, or it dies.

So the consequence of our own truth of life, by its identity is: “we chose”. Simple as that. Belief has no value/ want has no value/ what the herd believes has no value; our truth decides our future.

Which brings the question: HOW did I become the property of female? But the end result of that decision was: I cared more for this entire world of Creation/ than the cost to me.

But that refers to you as well: because this entire world of living, by all standards of measure; is built entirely upon the result of Noah’s flood. Which buried life on earth, by gathering it up into “floating islands”/ and then when that sunk, was covered with dirt or whatever it was: creating the fossil fuels we use. So we literally live by the evidence of a world judged wrong/ and yet, as cults do; through university and media lies, believe only they are the superior ones. To your shame.

So my life is spent; removing the curtain that hides them/ but believers are believers, and truth never mattered to any believer. Nor evidence, the cost of being wrong, or whatever it is they truly do want.

And the world says: “we want guarantees, and pathways, and rewards we know exist”. Because anything less, is not worth our “living time”; as cannot be spent twice. We must know, before we commit to changing life on earth. Unlike the universities which give us what we want.

Reality however does not provide that; as with this entire Creation which was truly created with thought. YOU MUST ACHIEVE THOUGHT, to be considered for eternity. “not intellect like universities do”/ but thought as is consistent with truth identified with law.

Within that regard: it is my perception that JESUS was able to manipulate “atomic relationships”; as we are all built with atoms. If you can understand these; and if you can manipulate these into order, then you can heal biology as functions within the laws that govern time and its creation by atoms. But, I could be wrong?

As to pathways; I refer you to the living of your own body; parts and pieces that are the mirror image of each other. Legs the same size, as are arms, feet, hands and so on; biology in its every form and sense of living as time. All created with the knowledge and understanding of what laws can or cannot do. How is that not “pathway enough”? It is for me.

The demand for a reward is a tragedy of want for you; as I remind you, EVERY CHILD CREATED, is in fact that reward of life in you. ARE you not formed in the womb, by female? Indeed you are/ and it is a vile disrespect to say, that is not enough. Life is more than any reward on earth; and it does not come from you. Neither does the food you eat, or the sight of your eyes, or the touch of your hand, or anything else with true value.

As for “living time”; I think it best said as my testimony to you; that demanding prior to the curse of life ending on earth; by lawrence livermore labs; 192 lasers, 180 million degrees, at 150,000 psi:  “to ignite a nuclear fire”; in San Francisco in 2012 with their experiment called fusion. I demanded “think about the cost of being wrong”. But none did, before the (old testament: world dies) experiment had failed.

You did not come when you were needed: so you were pushed away.  “too little/ too late”! no “freeloaders allowed”. Too late means the door is now closed.

However to remove those who began to think later. I was ordered by the spiritual woman inside of me: “to put on a bra” (believe it or not). Because that incident was more than cause enough for gossip to remove anyone who considered I might be right. Nonetheless; I said ABSOLUTELY NOT; turned and walked around two corners, and ran into or ricocheted off, an invisible wall, in the middle of my living room. “not going anywhere”. Tested it only once more; tried both sides were NO; and went back to put the bra (just a piece of cloth) on; for 48 hours. Until allowed to burn it (not again). So without doubt you don’t believe that, and I am not certain I would; yet it happened to me. “things are”, in fact; far more complex than a human cult worshiper, without a brain would believe. My story to you, not a game.

So lets continue with why you should change life on earth?

The evidence proves without doubt; regardless of what you believe: that this world will end in extinction; by your current choices. Which surround you as a world: with death, hell, and its chaos of extinction; by numerous means. If you will not investigate what is true of your own world; by cursing yourselves with want until you are dead. I have spent my time and life foolishly, in a tragedy of what was worthless to you.

If you finally wake up and realize the cost of being wrong is too high to survive; and change what must be changed to keep this world alive. I would need to give credit to the spiritual woman inside; who did keep me working, balancing life with truth, and providing “a new way of living; as if a child was born to you”; in these words. As was predicted in Revelation 12.

your choice; life or death/ no games left to play, as your ways are extinction for this whole earth. CHOOSE.

Religion is intended to be a relief, from the constant turmoil of human behaviors. Granting to those in crisis at some level; an opportunity to follow the rules, to a better place than you now are in. Unfortunately, that became the end result of religion; to describe rules, and aid people back to the realities of living in this world. The search for life itself, was removed due to the consequences of people who entered the spiritual world, and could not survive it. Because purity is required; which means every truth must be realized as your own truth; there is no “middle”. Only true or false, and that does not allow for any movement called a compromise. As with death itself: yes or no, is all you get.

So the reality of religion: is what it is, and the realities of life are what they are; and few go beyond; because even less are able to make it back “alive”. The spiritual world, is not a place for the weak or afraid.

Surviving the spiritual world, requires you to throw away “all the trash of your life”/ and accept every truth of your life, must be conquered in you. There is no room for doubt. But having entered correctly; “a valley of many doors, will appear”; and you may choose what interests you. But you may not escape that enclosure of truth/ unless you do understand its knowledge or wisdom. Thought is required, and in that participation beyond the concept of time; we begin to realize, that thought is a transition between life and time; which lends us “its home”.

The value is immense; but as with me; trapped in a female world (I honestly thought I could understand/ but it is a completely different world in every way; and I understood nothing). Not nearly enough has changed, and if it does male is completely gone; so it is no small thing. As that continues to become true; the future is entirely different; and I cannot comprehend it. But there is no other choice; yes or no, is all you get.

The cult has no brain, it believes; and that is all it needs. But the consequence of that is; they cannot imagine being wrong, the leader is god. So they fight against all forms of truth or evidence and claim “it is blasphemy” to contradict their reality, and investigate for truth.

Alas the curse of human sewage has trickled down into the deepest cracks of human psychotic behaviors; causing a world to die. So we are all down to the elemental decision: WHICH IS LIMITED TOO: “DISCOVERing THE CLAIM OF FUSION IS A LIE”. Or more distinctly; their 130 major experiments worldwide to ignite nuclear fire “just like the sun”; is the end of our planet. As it turns into a sun.

truth says: YOU KNOW THE COST OF BEING WRONG; is the sun fire; comes here. YOU KNOW you cannot survive it. YOU KNOW that a million mile long flame cannot be extinguished. YOU KNOW, the great “wizard of oz/ university” is filled with your former classmates. And you KNOW, even as a cult member; YOU WILL BE INCINERATED BY THAT FIRE; ONCE IGNITED.

So: the investigation of “BEGINNING TRUTH”; is limited to the truth of their experiments to ignite a fusion fire here on earth. EITHER YOU AGREE, and let them continue/ OR YOU DECIDE “WE CANNOT LET THEM BE THIS WRONG”; AND END THEIR DESCENT INTO HADES. By making them all stop immediately.

That is your decision to make; and it is non-negotiable. Do it, or be burnt alive. PROVE ME WRONG! Piss-head. OUT IN THE OPEN: WHERE EVERYBODY SEES YOUR EVIDENCE, and gets a say in whether to gamble their world or not. Their choice/ not yours or mine.

WHY? because you cannot afford to be wrong: it is life or death for the planet. and every human on earth: UNDERSTANDS FIRE! SO YOU KNOW, THE COST OF BEING “COMPLETELY WRONG”! as is the truth of a human cult worshiping arrogance, apathy, and disrespect; by proclaiming themselves god, as with mutilating nature itself.

IN THE REAL WORLD; THERE IS ALMOST NOTHING, “THE ROTTING CORPSE OF UNIVERSITIES and their sewage” HAS NOT INVADED TO DESTROY. They believe “we will learn and be gods”. But all they will learn is; their god is SATAN; AND OUR WORLD, including their own; is now dead. They are everywhere a curse, and a fool; as is those who worship them. TO YOUR OWN ETERNAL SHAME; “THEY CLAIM/ AND YOU BELIEVE”.

AS THE LIVING DEAD DO> cursed and unable to stand, because they want to be gods. The door will close soon; stand up for life, or be removed from it forever; as hell closes in.

as indicated: the old testament bible predicting the end of this world/ has passed by. While the experiment of universities was strong enough to do it; at that time, it was not allowed to occur.

Which brings us all to the new testament version of life ending or changing on this earth. Why biblical matters? Because this is where the guarantees of JESUS are written. And in his words the end of days will be when “the son of man” comes to tell humanity of things they did not know; saying He, WAS the son of man; to prove the education of a son of man; was not by the man’s own doing. Or more simply: as JESUS did teach throughout his career/ he continued to teach someone (it seems me), in a spiritual element of existence.

I really don’t know; but the evidence is significant that I have taught to you what was promised; and my education has been very extensive to do it. Or, “just repeating what I have been taught; as messengers do”. Apart from that the evidence of your world is extinction will come soon. So I believe the two are tied together.

Nonetheless the book of Revelation is a prediction after Jesus was gone from this earth; and looks at the ending in two different ways. The first 11 chapters are about how men end life on earth with all their universities weapons. While the second or from chapter 12 on; a new life is granted by “spiritual female” coming close to this planet; and changing life as we know it; by your own choices. To see in the future of us all, a different way; as designed by female, not male. That too seems to be me; as spiritual woman invaded my life/ or perhaps I invaded hers; “its complicated”.

The end result of that effect is basically written in Revelation 17;3 where male is the beast, under female control; and I would offer that is true now. It does not say how that ends for the “beast (to female/ to life)/ man”; although I have never been a beast to anyone.

Message delivered, seems to be the end of all that: YOUR CHOICE NOW. But being overridden by female in charge. Leaves what is left of me to wonder how this will end for me? The only real life conclusion seems to be: if the miracle of change continues, to its completion; then “clearly, I CANNOT; it is not me”. Then I must be some kind of “daughter of GOD (all things truly changed)“; not a clue/ clearly not me?  A world apart from everything I have known/ or from everything that “Jesus” created me to be, as his messenger? Or, it could be completely different; because I have no clue; “some type of pawn”? No clue. Nonetheless, I did deliver the message of change or you will die as a world: to you.

Offering help to women; in their intended surge, with law: to transform this earth into: “what life should have been, from the beginning”. As seems to be, the beginning of female desire. Not far from what male had in mind, which is gone/ but changed into/ from the entirely opposite view, called female. Its complicated, and I don’t know what I am doing; not really male at all/ but not really female either. Still waiting for reality to decide what my own future, at this point, will be. Because I don’t know? Not a clue.

Just like I have absolutely no clue why me? Life just sort of took over, and I have spent all my time, just trying to survive. End result is simply the end result; as is; I did do the best I could, with life allowed to me. “good or bad IS NOT a reality to me”; I did do the best I could, and “its all I got”. So the end result is, whatever it is. Even if I become female; since both sexes are entirely equal, I see no loss or gain. JUST DIFFERENT, and I assume, I can live that as an equal? But not as “perversion is”! Simply as truth is, “miracles decide”: NO room for any man sexually; ever. Instead truth knows I cannot do any such thing/ or miracles mean: distinctly and truly, not me.

It is, “a strange life”; never boring, but changed now. It’s weird, but it is my life. No clue; either the future or eternity? “all I got”. I do hope life on earth survives! Simple as that. “your job” is all the rest. At least that is my hope. Don’t know how it ends, for life or me. YOU, are responsible/ I did do, my job.       “from here”/ I am only allowed to help.

MY PLAN NOW; to try repairing life and living back to something I can recognize as normal….not sure what that is yet. YOU are responsible; for life and world/ I am not. So, I will wait; do what I can do, and hope all things, for you and me: will turn out for the best. Its all I can do. Who knows, maybe life will provide: “a value”.

I feel done, I hope to be done, I did do the job given to me.

And I am grateful to, at least believe; I could be done.

Don’t know, “what normal” really is? Don’t know why me/ or what now. So, “one day at a time”. Soon to be 73, (not pretty) and if you kill this earth and all its life; “I have lived my life”. Unlike the children you failed.

LIFE reminds me: FEMALE will decide now.

So, we return again to the reality of changing you.

1. Tying currency to population count means; no more inflation/ no more billionaires, no more traitors in politics, as removes their ability to counterfeit currency and create any amount of numbers they want; to support their rebellion against us all. No more ruining the savings of the old, by changing the numbers.

2. Removing debt creation from politics, to return control over that tragedy; to only what we the people are willing to pay for/ ENDS the claim of war, as is leaders do whatever they want.

3. Removing leaders from military involvement until war by we the people alone/ ends war and its military funding. Defense only until that vote exists. Removing weapons of mass destruction as against all life on earth; by world laws of the world itself.

4. Limited capitalism reminds us all: that our journey in life should be fair and justified for everyone. By our vote then we establish what poverty will be/ and what wealth can become; and what our own “fair to all” income will be. No more unions are needed.

5. Removing all these games; is only the start of what can be done with our democracy which means; we the people will decide. Because unlike 250 years ago; today we can communicate and vote. But unlike back then when the press actually lived with us/ today there is only mice and rats doing the bidding of their serpent the universities who took control with Reagan. Another failure of government in its entirety, not only fraud, but one of the greatest criminal decision ever made. And every politician since, has tried to outdo him; bringing this nation to its knees with shame. By proclaiming “the university is in charge”; as is your curse.

   Or more simply, I guess mine is a life of ten thousand things I still cannot do/ because no matter what, “female” is in charge. Complaining, in any form; is worthless. I have in fact, given up now. I cannot escape the spiritual world of female, nor will I ever be allowed out. It is not going to happen; ever.  “just how it is”.

6. your life however is ten thousand things the universities do; that will curse this earth, and make all life extinct. because no matter what; they are in charge of almost everything.   CHANGE that with redress and recreate your democracy/ or HELL will come.
7. either control your human population for real/ or you die. simple as that. Ten thousand things; or you die.
8. stop the insane, as is university plays god/ stop your leaders from playing god/ fix everything broken as is at least 99% of anything the universities did do/ give your children a real education, not indoctrination into a cult as is university; demand redress to use the law for rebuilding democracy as intended by enforcing that law on the criminally cursed.

   so, lets begin with the lessons of a “new life”. To accept oneself/ to find new friends/ to become entitled to claim “this is me”, and I am ok with that.

   A new life is just that, to begin again with changes that have been made, whether I agreed to make them or not, is irrelevant; because here they are, and this is my life as a body primarily given to me. To live as best I can, with whatever does in fact exist. Even if others gossip or ridicule; I am the life I choose. They shall not choose for me. To accept “new friends” is to remember “judge not/ lest you be judged” is a valuable lesson in truth. Or the discipline is; we are all responsible for our own decisions/ and what we could not do for ourselves, is what each of us must live with; because it is no choice. And if not a choice, we cannot be judged. That would be unfair, and the consequence is: you are then unfair. The claim of life is, to assert this is mine! The claim of hate is: I will take that away; to prove I can. The claim of want is: “nothing truly matters but me”. And so we all enter time with those choices. But those who are willing to achieve the grace of being alive; will choose that love entitles me to care/ and in that caring, I will share with those who are willing to share with me. To that the grace of life itself, will become my true friend; and in that reward, I will never be alone.

   A valued; Religion participates in that; guiding you to an understanding of truth. That our lives were given to us by miracles we do not understand; and by searching for truth we become participants in the knowledge we inherit as life begets wisdom. And wisdom leads us all, to the certainty of an eternal life.

   Of things we can discuss; is a lesson I learned about dogs. Had one, that would bark incessantly all night long in the dark/ if he was not put in a garage. I thought putting him in the garage was a punishment/ BUT learned he barked because he was afraid of “things in the dark”. When I finally came to realize; “he was afraid”/ after I hit him hard enough to stop that barking. I realized he had to face his fears/ as do all life on earth; including girls, young mothers, boys and so on. So I tied him up short, with not much room to hide; and made him a prey; with my own scent clearly in evidence as his only protection. He never barked again for 7 months or so. Until one night, I heard him close to the house; looked out the window just in time to see a wolf tempting him to follow; by playing the “coward”. Alas cowards love to believe they are brave, while shouting look at me. Which he did, and I managed to open the window and shout just in time to save his life; wolf turned away.

   The lesson being: what we believe is usually wrong, and if something seems wrong; then we really do have to learn what that is/ rather than just believing we know what we do not know. I really never thought about dogs being afraid of things; but they are. As are many elements of life we must choose to protect, in order for them to grow into the people they are going to be.

   Of similar things; children test their parents: to see if they have the ability to conceive of controlling their world. I did that with food, just once. Teenagers do that with such things as “this is a pigsty, rather than a house” (or I want to leave on my own). Doing things such as self-hypnosis to increase their odds of success in manipulating others. And that is only the beginning, as both girls and boys intend to “get what I want”.

   Which leads to an endless variety of young people in situations that are out of control, for one or the other. Because manipulation is a powerful tool, if you don’t realize “people lie”/ even when they conceive of loving you. Its a choice, as is the response. The end result is always the same: only truth is fair/ everything else is, at its core: a war.

   Which brings us to want, and the cost of marriage which is simply: we are given to marriage ONLY when both parties involved agree: “we will live and walk together in our journey now, as if we are one”. My life to you, and yours to me; where freedom becomes the right to make you & me, happy.

   Those who are manipulated into traps, find themselves unable, or unwilling, to make this commitment to each other. And that is the result of wanting what you believe will not happen; unless you do, or make them do; “this thing/ usually sex”. Sex is a deliberate chain, to tie you to woman/ with the chemical response that is an addiction for male (this is good/ right now). Children create a bond; so they are used because being female alone, in a world of predators is scary. So they want what they want/ and men commonly want sex, and will follow the path of what is easy for me to do. “its called dating”.

   To end that path; requires the knowledge to know what each other provides by their truth of life and living. Extreme want is a life given to that want; so be careful what they want, it is never far away and you are intended to provide. Refusal to care, is the evidence no real love here. Refusal to share is the evidence of selfishness. Taking away something because you can is open greed. Bully means violence; but that is many times the result of how this person is treated by others first. However if they like the violence/ they are turning to hate first; remove yourself from their world, as much as you can. Women lie and want sex/ just as men lie and want sex; they just have different uses for it.

   Which brings us to gossip and ridicule; the forms of conversation extremely easy to create and contribute “in secret little ways” / or in loud and blusterous ways: both are designed to change their world, and create havoc for the target selected. By declaring “i saw this tiny thing” and now I know EVERYTHING. Which of course is not true; so they instill their own lives, and describe what they would do or be doing in this situation. It is a constant source of tragedy for humanity; many times doing far more damage than can be recognized. Because people believe what they want to believe. Better NEVER to repeat anything that could be gossip; for any reason at all. Being aware, the gossiper has failed. But that reminds everyone: it is conversation, that we all need/ whether rich or poor. We do need to communicate our purpose, desire, want, or whatever it is, in life. Because being alone is not desirable; so we find something to say; as is sports, and betting and drinking, and eating and so on. Anything to quiet the noise of silence. Because silence allows the inner voice to enlarge, and that then becomes a fight between life and truth/ or death and revenge. Religion calls it devil. But it is formed by unanswered want, and the selfishness of greed.

   So the question then becomes: if you want a person badly/ how do you get them to commit; when they don’t want too? This is where the inner voice offers advise. And this is where love then says only truth will suffice/ not want. And that requires a living that we can in fact share as our own. Which means; I help you/ not judge you. And that is confronted by desire; which may or may not include someone else to participate. As with my own life; a dying world comes first/ and lesson after lesson which I guarantee completely disregarded “ethics, morals, or whatever society believes”; so that truth would be in evidence for me. Because you cannot “think” through someone else/ YOU MUST do so on your own. And that honestly left no room for companionship; it was an education first. Which never really ended; as now, female takes control. Its complicated.

   The base of human behaviors is very simple: by removing the competition/ then there is more for me. As is me or you; Which becomes us or them if that is not done (I need an army). To create a resolution among those who do not intend to join; but are just like you. Gossip and ridicule are joined to bigotry and bullying to create both pride(this is us) & prejudice (that is them); as in the old sheep versus cattle, wars of the west. By creating “these will harm us”/ true or false does not matter: they create a need to join, so that I will not be harmed, if you believe. If you don’t believe/ then more drastic measures of this will change your child, this will change our society, this will be against GOD, or whatever humanity will accept as “belief; we want what we want”. The purpose is to divide into sides, so they can create war: pushing you out front/ so the predator can take whatever he wants, from both sides; behind the curtain of war. Competition ends badly for all, and competition is everywhere on earth; as overpopulation of humanity ends the balance established as nature. And that ends everything humans want/ and that ends with war against life, and then self; there is nothing left we want.

   The competition of dating is disguised as “let’s all fuck each other/ and be well”. Nothing matters but what you want! As is governed by universities know. But the end result of that is to eliminate diversity; because the universities know it is easier to manipulate and control; if everything is the same. It is easier to control those who do not comply; if we send anger and hate against them. As is the constant deluge of prejudice directed at one group should hate the other group; as for slavery 150 years ago. The universities are a curse; leading the charge to create mayhem; because distractions allow them to; hide behind the curtain of war/ and take everything they want, without fear; “cause your busy”.

   NONETHELESS the realities of dating are simple: we must compete with each other, and society determines the rules. Youth rebel and scream; “you cannot control me”/ and do what society screams NO. then all must accept whatever tragedy comes, because as is true of pregnancy; “its too late to change your mind now”. So the alternate to parenting screams: EITHER abortion or not abortion/ AND society itself shouts; I DON’T WANT THIS. While realities exist, lives are changed either way, and the path is crossed, which means rarely do people get to go back; and start again. Truth blocks that decision.

   In the real world; true love is very hard to find, although I found women who were able and willing to love me. I was fortunate in many ways, with many choices. But life had a different plan, and realities just as the people who built the national ignition facility NIF would not be stopped; without truth. And it turned out humanity did not want truth, but GOD did not let the experiment to burn atoms result in HADES on earth. And then so much more is wrong. I never had a chance to be “simple”. But the spiritual world added balance by sending female; and life changed. However to my great surprise; it did not change back. Even so, I would not choose to be as unbalanced as I was before that event. Life is precious, and should never be a war/ unless it is by law.

   Of things learned is: you can’t have romance (love only for a short time), people will not let go/ and you have taken their time to search for someone else; it is not fair. But the reality of dating is: “can’t do this/ can’t do that/ everything will go wrong; BUT you must compete, and that means you are going to do what the others do; and that leads to endless complications and no honest solutions. At the end of “my rope” so to speak; I decided “I know the sister/ so likely to know this one too; just discard dating entirely, and claim lets try”. Did not turn out well, as basic insanity (I don’t know where to turn/ what to do; is). So I cast aside all thought of “relationships”/ and went entirely into thought. The lesson is: everything we do to each other matters/ there is no free lessons in life; other than perhaps this one, which was paid by me, and others. For your benefit. Dating is hard in many ways; people who are not “pretty” are often found discarded sexually. People who are pretty can be found hiding in isolation, and are not found. People who are abused often blame the other sex for their issues; all of them/ not one is fair; as is wrong. People who believe what they believe are rarely right about anything. And the end result of it all is identified in some ways by tattooing: the silent shout of demanding I will tell you about me/ even if you won’t listen to anything I say. It is however graffiti, and should not be done in my view; because a body is precious, not a billboard. It is however YOUR right to do what you wish, with your OWN body. Because it is yours. People manipulate each other, its what humanity does do. People want to use each other for sex, to pacify their addictions as is lust. People want what you have; and resort to war to get it. People believe whatever they want to believe so as to give themselves an excuse to abuse, cheat, steal, betray, terrorize or ten thousand things more; as is the leader of nations now; called a universities diploma. The turbulent child who never grew up. The coward that screams: I am the superior one/ who hides behind closed doors; shoving others out to take the blame.

   So we begin again: to address the basic truths of human existence/ and find, cults are created, by removing the brain/ leaving you with no choice but to follow the leader. Which is why cults are the very hardest human delusion to discard; because they believe what they believe; truth and evidence, be damned.

   With entire nations 90+ percent indoctrinated as a cult; it is virtually impossible to untangle the curse of “rat sewage” from reality. Even so, the female of my soul, living as me, demands we will try. So we will try.

   OR, what is more correctly true is: only female taking ownership, will try now. Its complicated, a value shifted into time itself! By overthrowing or controlling: male.

   The element of male remains merely a passenger, who cannot even assist; because that would mean, he remains as more than spirit. Its complicated; “time gone/ all done”. I do not foresee the day, that can be changed anymore.

   OR, in a more realistic understanding: we, the essence of spiritual female and I, the physical element of male/ have traded places now. She has become the physical demonstration of life, with control over body & mind. While, I have in turn become the spiritual element of her existence; elevating her understanding of what is true. We have: “changed places”! Or in terms of reality; she is more valuable to this time of life on earth/ than male. I do wish her well/ it is functionally soon, time for me to leave. Not a clue; whether “her or I” should live a day/ or a thousand years? “complicated”. My guess is: she intends to take the decision/ the communication for law of this world, to women. I would only interfere; it is my world now/ but not. “complicated”.

   So, I have been considering the outcome of all this for me; and find that I have been left behind, “from the world beyond”; twice now. That is consistent with the vision (life, in a different dimension. “thought” is a very powerful tool, the essence of existence itself); of the pale horse and its rider of death; once he turned back/ and once he rode by at a very close distance. But the end result of standing over the abyss on a small balcony; asking to be taken from the Hell they are creating. Seeing in the distance clouds across the abyss what could not be mistaken as “human like buildings”. Or in the second time far more recent; what appeared to be a “turbulent dirt cloud” nobody could see through. Where spiritual male (requiring all the power time could produce; ending that) and spiritual female entered leaving me behind. With only female left in me. To then ask the question: am I, is male: abandoned? Because the truth is after twenty plus years of female intrusion; there is no female in male, and I am just interfering (no real value) now. So what does happen to me, the last bits and pieces of male as life? The answer is; I don’t know, at all? Leaving this life behind for a grave, to end male: letting female own it all. Does not seem a value/ not female, it just isn’t in me; so can’t do that. Remaining spiritual male in a female world; a slave to their decisions; certainly does not allow freedom; as the last particularly 7 years have proven. She won the war, she takes what she wants; I have no say; she owns everything. I guess male set the standard for that; although not me.

   I guess, life will decide (not me); as it has for the last twenty years; without my consent required. Whatever will be, will just be.

   Which does bring us into life itself, which is the expansion of force, to create and intensify the destiny that is thought. Life then becomes the circle of motion, dedicated to preserving the moment that separates force from life itself.