A prisoner of my own life. How utterly filled with chaos, and the destruction of order, that really is.
Reality says; that as a participant in revelation 12 & 17, I am no longer entitled to be “me”. And yet that “me” is so stable, and so utterly defined by identity; I cannot/ not be me. But life demands, your existence is no longer as male, but female/ and you may not abandon the value of that reality; by any reference to male. He is “shredded, removed, disassembled, and destroyed”/ never to return. And yet no information exists on how to be “female”? Only the end of male exists.
That functionally has become my reality; in the spiritual world of life/ when what was male, left time entirely with the spiritual female; that did invade my life; or I hers, I don’t really know. Regardless “they left for eternity”/ and what is left in the spiritual world of female, is female. But its a male body, and its male time, and its 73 years of male living; how can that be changed so completely; as to be extinct now?
Truth says: I literally do, desire to quit writing entirely. My work is finished, and I do wish to encounter time, as a simple experience, expressed in simple ways; until death simply denies/ or proves, I shall stay no more. But simple is NOT changing sexual identities; at all. Caught in the “middle of the sea” so to speak; without so much as a paddle to guide or choose my own way; adrift, to my great surprise.
Regardless of reality; HOW does life, become female? Answer; “nothing male exists here at all”/ seems correct. But I cannot just wave a magic wand, and remove everything male; even if it is overridden by female; that just won’t work. So who do I live as female, regardless of the ridicule or tragedy of circumstances that is inherent in that kind of change in this world? Not a clue.
And NO, this is not about sex/ not about envy/ not about clothes or any departure from the realities of gender; it is only about “forced change”. You can’t stay male anymore! It seems so unfair, honestly. But life is life, and I did cross a spiritual line/ and it was my decision and purpose and even desire to find an answer; to aid and abet this world instead of extinction. “the opposite view” did that; but I never would have guessed, “its permanent”. After all: keeping this earth alive is important to female too! Irrelevant I guess? I don’t know; just that simple.
HOW, do I change: from what I had always considered “valuable”/ to something entirely different, than what I was? Something never once considered to be “me”? I guess reality says; this entire world is facing a similar decision? Only mine is much harder; at least to me.
We then start from where we must; at the beginning of truth. Or more distinctly after, the ten years of searching; to find male had no answer at all/ for how to keep this earth alive. Female was the only possibility left. And that remains true to this day; because after thousands of years of men leading life on earth. ALWAYS CHOOSING WAR as their answer. WE MUST HAVE DIFFERENT THAN THAT/ or we all die, because this world has changed too.
So what makes female DIFFERENT? And how is that better, for life on earth? A primary reality is: they are not equipped for fighting wars. So their response is always going to be law must decide; as is their weapon of enforcing change. LAW is what men discard to have war: or, “we will take what we want”/ or stop you from taking ours. And that leaves “women need to write the law, that we all vote upon for life in society or world”. Because their solution is not war; but fair play, as best we can.
That confronts the reality of me with: NO YOU CAN’T anymore. And she has torn everything physical apart to prove that very thing; which I truly don’t like. Nothing I can do, because the spiritual world of female owns me; and the reality of that is “like being hit by lightning” if she wants. Last effort was one step to defy resistance; and she nearly melted my socks off. Reality knows; male is forever done; like it or not. Finished!
So I guess this world is going to have to undergo the same thing; which is NO MORE WEAPONS OF MASS DESTRUCTION/ which does mean replaced by world law instead. No exceptions worldwide. We all turn to the law/ and we all make the law internationally enforceable, on leaders; because we all know the law we vote upon; as our own/ WORLD DECISION. No lawyer needed/ and if the judge fails us, by refusing to honor our law: we as a society, remove him or her.
We then divide on reality itself; which in my case is “I now have tits/ and there is absolutely nothing male about them”. WAY different than expected/ even though I never considered them at all: “not my job”/ so wrong. Or more distinctly the power of female, or being female, or responding as female, or whatever this is; is somehow through tits at least; I cannot overcome them/ they are in command.
The reality of this world under male control is: THE MONEY controls everything/ much the same way as tits are controlling me. I have no say! So the end result of that is: with “limited capitalism”/ money remains of use, but loses it power to control. And the world of being human will change accordingly; because it has no choice. Just like me.
So what then? Trapped in a maze of “I don’t know”? Reality suggests; time will identify what must be accepted or done to achieve real world change. So we both just have to hope for the best/ I guess.
OH WAIT, I KNOW: order comes only when we know what is or is not true of the life and realities of what we are going to change. And that requires for you at least; to understand by REDRESS OF GRIEVANCES/ the constitutional law of this USA. To investigate and learn what is true for life and world/ identifying the risk and realities of “university is wrong”. To become an independent people/ NOT A DEAD HEAD, CULT WORSHIPING HERD. As is the current disgrace to life and earth.
As for me; I need to know what is literally true of “the inner workings” of women as well/ but that seems unlikely at best. Not my choice. “just the captive, in the back seat of a vehicle going someplace”/ but I don’t know where.
YOU MUST restrict your currency to; “ONLY so much per citizen/ by tying it to the census count”; by making it CONSTITUTIONAL LAW (our government)! TO REMOVE the diseased parasites in government employ. From taking control over you/ as university has done.
YOU MUST restrict debt accumulation: to SOCIETY DECIDES/ not our employees; and nobody gets a loan without their down payment of taxes first. NO MORE “LET THE CHILDREN PAY”/ PAY yourselves.
And I guess; something about that conceives of sexuality, for me. Birth control for you! A reality not considered for a very long time. “its complicated”, for us both. Women decide for you, because it is their own body! Not yours. They will bear in mind: that abortion is NOT birth control. However for the first weeks after conception; it is not human life ending/ until real world truth says it is. There is a huge difference; between early and late ending of life by abortion. There is no conception of “woman dies/ or child lives”; woman owns the right to survive.
Life demands: it is too late to simply complain “leaders have failed us all”. And we the world must take control for ourselves. By using the law/ creating the law/ and enforcing the law that will provide the best solution for keeping this earth, and all its living miracles; alive.
That requires; confronting “government” to be, as the law demands they will be. And nothing adheres to that, more than redress of grievances. Which is “change for life and world/ or die, because of arrogance, apathy, and disrespect”.
That requires: THAT WE THE WORLD & NATION shall make the decisions that control what will or will not happen; with regard to “critical decisions/ such as covid”. No more “leaders decide”. Truth decides, as we make it into law. Reality demands: as citizens we enforce the duty, “our employees are only entitled to OBEY OUR LAW”/ not make their own to discard constitutional government.
We cannot change the reality of choices made, that will not be reversed. But we can save this world if we share the responsibility, and care about the result. It is not a game/ anymore. “it is not my choice anymore”. It is your choice, for this world; to let truth decide/ or universities will finish with your extinction, ending life on earth.
Unfortunately the same basic truth is now the reality of my life as well. My real world complaint is; “no freedom or rights, to be what I would otherwise choose to be”. Or at its elemental level; being male ultimately means; “quit whining; and learn what you need to know, in order to get what you want to do, done”. It is basically that simple, to be male/ and those who believe, “I can pray”/ therefore I don’t need to know! Are just wrong; you can’t pray and claim no responsibility; IT IS A DECISION YOU MADE; and that makes the consequences a decision you chose.
By life is now, no part of that; and I still have no clue what the elemental level of being female is? Can’t make a decision, that is ultimately female, without the slightest clue about what that literally means!
Can’t care about the result of living as female; unless you know what that truth is. Saving this world, requires us all; because at 9 BILLION people/ even one in nine thousand people; MEANS THERE ARE ONE MILLION who believe the same. So no, we can’t just do what universities say; which is DISRESPECT LIFE AND WORLD/ choose ARROGANCE DECIDES, the rest are too stupid to count/ and be completely APATHIC to everyone or everything EXCEPT ME; damn you ME, is all that matters. And at one per every nine thousand people; that means a million of these exist. A million people can shout loud; and do, as is the reality of universities lead, to our extinction.
As a world: we then must all decide; fully knowing the masses of humanity cannot decide on anything of importance; “without direction”. And the universities use that propaganda of media to insure humanity does not organize into a mass of people who can decide to save this earth. But as with all cults; it is the believers that make it possible, for a leader to be “so corrupt” as is “university/ Satan”.
Of all things in this world; the hardest CURSE upon this world; is a believer. Because they want what they want, and no truth matters; evidence is discarded as the trash/ and they all listen only to the leader. Until reality demands at least some realize; we can’t. The university religion is; “blanket the whole”/ so that only media can idolize the few. No questions asked, media aligns with the manipulation of the masses; as is herd control.
SO WHAT CAN WE DO? And the only answer is: WE MUST VERIFY THE TRUTH, AS BEST WE CAN; IN WAYS THAT CANNOT BE REFUTED BY “belief”. As does require a courtroom; to bring the witnesses, and punish the liars. NOT by believing whatever you want: as is whatever the leader says, “so I don’t have to be responsible”. But by separating what is true, from what is wrong; and verifying: “we cannot make a decision on this/ at this time” because we lack the evidence of value needed. A brain (your own) is required. THEREFORE we must align ourselves with “YOU CAN’T RISK”/ what you cannot absolutely repair, back to the way it was. And of course university means: the dead who believe, & will kill us all. Because they cannot return anything to the way it was; before the fantasies and delusions of playing god existed.
Nonetheless, a believer is a believer; and you cannot distill that from them without truth and knowledge. It is the only way. MEDIA takes a liar, and makes them “a saint”/ by propagating tiny things (just one thing); when what matters is everything as one thing. The curse of the believer is: I can find just one grain of sand on the beach; and say, “this is all that matters to me”. Because I WANT TOO. And while it is true of “one tiny grain of sand”; like gossip. The whole world is not made of one tiny grain of sand; just like a life is not made of a single moment or word or whatever it is you choose to judge or ridicule a life with.
You are more than that/ life is more than that/ OUR EARTH is not limited to that; which makes the fool who says it is, “liar”.