Disgrace

IT IS, the essence of love, to find in each miracle of life; a value beyond anything “I or we” could create. In that way we know, that respect is the only truth which should inhabit our lives, or direct our path; in this journey we all take as time. To conceive of truth, requires us all to accept: the evidence of law (reality decides); not you or me. To trust in the evidence of miracles; is to conceive of “eternity” itself; and accept this world is far greater than what we can understand. Giving to truth its existence in law, by our acceptance of respect.

UNFORTUNATELY “universities deny all of that”/ seeking instead to make us animals/ not human, merely predators or prey; which compete for everything. Failures of life, because there is no respect; as is evidenced by evolution; and ten thousand more. Choosing, “whatever is easy NOW”/ by destroying the future of life itself; by destruction, rape, and ravaging of choices made.

 

The curse of an entire world: exists in those who have chosen to rob the future of its resources/ so they could play today; screaming “counterfeit money is great”. Proving let the children pay; again and again and again; as their garbage mountains grow. To assassinate every child. Those who cannot understand reality as it did in the past/ no longer exists. YOUR world of beliefs in all things war/ is no more. Fail and extinction is your reward.

Therefore: IT IS beyond doubt, that the greatest disgrace in the entirety of human history is a university. NOT because some of what they contribute is not valued. But because the summary of what they contribute is the end of life on earth. And nothing can stop that, if we the people do not change directions; and respect life and world instead.

And all of humanity screams: I WANT WHAT I WANT/ THEY GIVE ME WHAT I WANT; AND YOU CAN GO TO HELL. Because I DON’T WANT the life we left behind/ and you cannot stop me from living today; EVEN IF tomorrow I die. Because I DON’T CARE; today is what I want. But tomorrow is here, and you will change or die; because the evidence is absolutely certain; that is your only choice.

AND ALL OF HUMANITY SCREAMS: you can’t prove that/ UNTIL WE ARE ALL DEAD. But truth replies: once you are dead/ there is no going back, no turning back the clock; to where you live.

So the impasse is: change now/ or surrender to extinction. Because one or the other is all you have left; too much damage has been done; for any other solution to be real. And all the people scream: NOT NOW/ I WANT WHAT I WANT; LATER, WHEN I DON’T HAVE WHAT I WANT. Leave me alone.

The end result of that is death! The cost of being wrong is extinction; as is so plainly proven by those people trying to ignite the same SUN FIRE here on earth. Which is absolutely beyond insane; because we know those flames are “a million miles long” with radiation that will melt you in an instant! And as the sun proves true: it cannot extinguish itself/ until the entire sun explodes.

Yet not even that: AN ENTIRE WORLD GONE IN AN INSTANT OF IGNITION; WITH 130 MAJOR WORLD EXPERIMENTS, AND TRILLIONS OF DOLLARS SPENT; cause humanity to investigate what is true. The cost of being wrong/ or the theories upon which “university” gambles our entire world, and every single life on it. To your shame.

So the end result of trying to teach you all for the last fifty years is: you won’t learn/ because you want what you want: as BELIEVERS who cannot question their leaders. Because the cult of believers has learned: “the real difference in humans with a diploma/ and humans without a diploma is: the universities created their own foreign language to keep you out. Giving to a blade of grass; the delusion of endless parts and pieces/ as if they had control; but do not. While not universities know: what matters here is it is a blade of grass, and it is alive, providing much to our planet and its life; so DON’T KILL IT. But as with all “university expertise”; THEY FAIL to say how many times they have tried.

Life in this USA is as medicine is: “have you ever heard of doctors making a mistake”? NO, even though they are human, and we know: ALL HUMANS make mistakes. But society does not want to know that; because they want to believe “I AM SAFE” here. So that fear does not overtake them all. Even though: ignition of atoms on fire will do just that. They absolutely refuse to acknowledge this exists.

Because like a vote for president (never was) or any other: we all know, it is worthless/ or more correctly on a scale of 1-10; a vote is the power of one; while power itself controls the other 9 elements of pride rules now.

our existence depends upon: OUR OWN ACCEPTANCE OF POWER TO RULE OUR LIVES AND OUR PLANET/ therefore it relies upon taking power away from the universities; and giving it back to WE THE PEOPLE DECIDE NOW.

Of countless delusions created by universities (your own former classmates in schools) none of which were gods. I return you to those trying to ignite SUN FIRE here on earth; and remind you ONCE IGNITION OCCURS, there is no going back: time ends here.

BECAUSE YOU CAN UNDERSTAND THE SUN; just as much as your “scientists do”.

They CANNOT study the sun/ or see inside the flames/ or prove “the ignition of atoms will just extinguish itself”; AS IS THEIR CLAIM. Gambling on claims of “we are gods/ if we don’t prove to be right; we will just do it over”. But there will be none of that; as a million mile long flame is four times farther than the moon; with heat and radiation beyond your comprehension. As is proven by the sun is 94 MILLION MILES AWAY; and will still burn your skin in summer. Or without ozone will kill you dead; even now.

And yet: jet planes BURN OZONE TO IGNITE THEIR FUEL! Which means with millions of plane rides every year; soon there will be no ozone; and you will be dead. Just one of the thousands of threats: all of which can make us extinct.

Your former classmates DO NOT KNOW what the sun is/ do not know what gravity is/ do not know how the sun works/ theorize with stupidity, “its all just magic”/ and collect trillions of dollars to create machines WHICH CAN DO NOTHING if they don’t ignite atoms on fire. One or the other; because their claims of the sun; can all be proven wrong.

So I am tired of you; your failure to “have a brain”/ your cult worship of universities, because you want what you want. While it is absolute theft of all securities, that has given you what you wanted/ and the endless delusion of numbers, NOT reality that lets you believe “i have wealth”/ when in fact you don’t. The list is long; you failed.

As you said to me: “YOU CANNOT STOP US”. I will say to you: YOU CANNOT STOP EXTINCTION/ without truth. Choose!

Investigate the claims of SUN FIRE! Make them prove the cost of being wrong. Make them prove their theories of stupidity and deceit. Make them prove you can survive the radiation. Or an atomic fire will just extinguish itself. Make them prove: their claim WE ARE YOUR SAVIORS/ you don’t have to do nothing; we are gods.

Because if they are not gods as they claim to be; throwing chaos into everything in worship of their religion called evolution. Then we die as a world. Or we change back to NATURE IS OUR LIVES GIVEN TO US ALL/ and whatever we do, it must be consistent with what nature absolutely needs to survive us. What our world needs to survive us. What sanity needs; to prove: THIS AIN’T NO DAMN GAME, you pathetic fools.

OR IN MORE SIMPLE TERMS:   even you can understand; “just like me”!

1. Reality states: when atoms are ignited on fire/ EVERYTHING becomes fuel for that fire (just like the sun; even rocks).

2. The universities say: WE DON’T have to worry! Because there is not enough gravity here on earth to sustain the fire; so it will just extinguish itself. “that is the plan”/ there is no other plan.

3. We cannot survive the heat or radiation of SUN FIRE here. HOW is that not true?

4. The universities say: the sun is made of hydrogen/ not true; their spectrum is “the ash cloud”. Their claim of gravity is; a magical element that is 16 times bigger than lead. Or by comparison: it is lead the size of a marble/ and their imaginary; graviton the size of a basketball. NO EVIDENCE at all/ “just imagination”.

5. A solar flare (excess fuel surge) has been measured at 12 million miles long.

6. Core of the sun EXTREMELY HOT/ yet that would make the sun itself EXTREMELY UNSTABLE/ and with all the fuel on fire; it cannot last in time, which we know it does.

7. Universities say: the sun does not burn fuel? Yet we know it does, because we feel the heat; from 94 million miles away. “just to start”.

   And if there is not ENOUGH COMMON SENSE LEFT IN AN ENTIRE HUMAN WORLD TO DEMAND AN INVESTIGATION; which wrong means; WILL end in our extinction by FIRE; AS AN ENTIRE WORLD LOST.      THEN THE  CULT WORSHIPERS have killed you.       or, TRUTH is dead/ and that means; you cannot change.

   BECAUSE EVEN YOU; no matter who you are/ CAN UNDERSTAND THE COST OF BEING WRONG: IS THE END OF OUR WORLD/ BY FIRE.

Which means; it is worthless for me to continue. Unless required by “life beyond self”.

BECAUSE EVEN YOU

CAN UNDERSTAND: “AIN’T NOTHING” IN A UNIVERSITY”

BUT PEOPLE! No gods at all.

And we do all make mistakes

claiming WE KNOW/ when in fact that is a complete lie.

And that means: it is you/

THE BELIEVER

THAT IS PLAYING god, “claiming we know/ we believe”: too!

And there are consequences for that!

And the entire human planet screams: YOU CAN’T BLAME ME/ I DIDN’T DO NOTHING: THEY DID IT.

But a dead world has no mercy; and you “hired the killers”.

YOUR TRUTH IS YOUR WITNESS

and it cannot be made to lie.

Or, more clearly: there is no place to hide!

Your choice is your truth.   just like my choice is my truth; consequences and all.

To discard this world; because you would not care; even about dying in fire.

OR

to save this world; because life is more important than your want. As is “even you” know that is true. If you do not lie to yourself.

AND HUMANITY SCREAMS: YOU CANNOT MAKE ME UNDERSTAND/ I REFUSE! SO IT AIN’T MY FAULT. I only wanted what everyone else wanted; FREE  for me, WHO GIVES A DAMN about truth or its consequences: OR YOU.

BUT TRUTH SCREAMS BACK: EXTINCTION IS FOREVER, BY YOUR CHOICE NOT TO CARE ENOUGH; even to try to save this earth. Only truth survives.

Shame on you.

NATURE IS LIFE; those who believe they can do better; are in fact TERRORISTS. Because we are not “smart enough/ nor will we ever be”. To create life/ as nature does do for us.

BUT fools say, “all we have to do is change the genetics” to become like gods. The cost of being wrong however is: changing genetics is like/ or is, the basis of disease: instead of living/ there is only dying now. Instead of food to eat: only poisons are left now. Instead of immunity; plant and livestock pandemics kill this world.

 

BUT as it is with all religions: THOSE WHO BELIEVE, DEMANDING “i WANT what I want”; instead of truth decides. Will always continue to defy the law of life; and choose to gamble with death. “shouting” I can’t be wrong; because I believe in what I want. But as with universities in charge now; “taking us all with them in their belief, with media propagation of lies”.  the cost of being WRONG; as is death to our world.

THE PLANET IS FINITE, and without cold there is no moderating the heat in summer; and life dies because we changed the earth.

WITHOUT WATER we all die/ aquifers collapse/ and places are deserted because we have no choice. TO ASSUME there is no cost to what humanity does; is to BETRAY ourselves and our world.

WITHOUT RESOURCES; THERE IS NO FUTURE.

And yet the universities demand: “no consequences for us”/ as they continue to trample and destroy the very laws of our existence that keep us all alive. Gambling they can be “better gods”/ as Satan:  than life itself is.

They are LIARS.

The universities are convinced they can play; without consequences! Because they believe that evolution is real/ screaming “chaos built life”! Yet have not one piece of REAL LIFE EVIDENCE; to support their religion/ and it is a lie.

THEY BELIEVE: that they can ignite “atoms on fire” and yet FULLY KNOWING the sun has “million mile long flames”/ THEY BELIEVE we will just do it over; if something goes wrong.

On this planet made entirely out of fuel.

Because they believe, as they have proven in the evidence of claims; “the sun is MAGIC”/ not truth.

To their shame.

OR, in more simple terms: POWER is intent upon taking possession of every property and resource of value; in this nation. They have engineered catastrophe/ claimed debts we are intended to pay/ destroyed the currency with inflation media does not report. Created covid to remove the opposition. Denied as with every insurgency the rebuilding of infrastructure. Or as was led by Reagan; they sold the gold/ and never paid a single debt; wherein all the universities screamed HURRAY; because they were the benefactors of economic collapse.

Agriculture is the latest target of mayhem in government: the intent to bankrupt and then buy for pennies (TO OWN IT ALL); with their counterfeit currency; “all numbers/ no reality” (you cannot compete with fantasy money involved). To sidestep their curse of agriculture; requires that you organize yourselves; and accept the truth: if we all agree to withhold “fertilizer”/ THEN we control the volume of crops that can be produced. The agreement is: ANY AMOUNT OF GRAIN BEYOND “ a bushel amount”/ WILL be donated to those who deserve and need it to survive. Until we are back in control of our lives, and future.

Forming a union; which then controls the elevator, (can’t sell here unless you agree/ or creates a coop for loading grain into railroad cars (got to have a siding; and methods); if dry; silage bags work for an interim storage use. Or, there has to be a way; to organize and remove the curse of government. Or forming an alliance with those who need grain; until truth returns. “up to you” sit back and wait, for bankruptcy/ or do what you can do. And that applies to farm equipment as well: as is WE WON’T forget!

DEMOCRACY IS NOT the end of freedom and liberty to decide for ourselves; surrendering our values, to any employee! Rather it is the beginning of cooperation to assert; we will be treated fairly/ or change the current conditions so that we will be treated fairly.

For corn a realistic opportunity is: to demand the truth in feeding livestock, IS NOT “grass fed, saves the planet”. That is a simple lie.

OR YOU CAN do what life itself needs you to do; and that is use the available food to offset demanding the ocean life needs relief/ and ultimately food for it to survive. Which would mean: dead human bodies are turned into “fish food”/ because we have nothing else; and starvation is worse for YOU; as is coming due to population growth. in other words:  work for life, or we go extinct.

OR, you can just surrender now; recognizing that geneticists will not stop; “its their job”! And the increase on production comes from the elimination of immunity to all disease. Plant pandemics will soon arrive; ending all food supplies; because as with corn: it is a subspecies of grass. Which means every grass is subject to that disease, or many more. But then “who really cares”/ right! Cause you are gods, just like universities; screaming NO CONSEQUENCES for us. Because no matter what you believe: every truth has a consequence. But then without water: will it really matter?

OR IN MORE SIMPLE TERMS THAN THAT: IF WE DON’T CONTROL OUR LIVES AND OUR NATIONAL BANKRUPTCY/ they will, TAKE IT ALL; AS COMMUNISTS DO. THE AMOUNT OF CURRENCY BEING USED: IDENTIFIES THE TRUTH OF INFLATION, AND WHO IS STEALING OUR MONEY FROM US ALL. Answer track where it goes, as with covid: initial vaccine was equal too: one hundred thousand dollars per shot. And ninety percent of that went to a very few “university diplomas” who initiated the biological weapon; because they could. they are enemy; “NOT friend”.

And the world says: “university is our god”/ because they made life EASY/ screaming NO CONSEQUENCES FOR US; “let the government pay/ then let the children pay/ then let the grand children pay/ then fraud and failure does not matter; NUMBERS are all we need! REALITY IS NOT. BUT all lies fail.

Universities say: DOESN’T MATTER; our experts will not believe. Doesn’t matter what the evidence says is true. As with jet planes consuming ozone/ and ejecting at least a billion BTUS per ride; let us be radiated, WE DON’T CARE. Nobody is going to change.

Universities say: DOESN’T MATTER; our experts will not believe. Doesn’t matter what the evidence says is true. How much heat we release; based upon how many fossil fuel fires there are, forest fires, etc. WE WON’T CARE. BUT, as the atmosphere itself continues its cold descent into the equator; when the two forces of cold from each pole meet; the same effect as is on Jupiter “spot (spiraling hurricane)”; will begin, and take over the atmosphere itself.

Universities say: DOESN’T MATTER; our experts will not believe. Doesn’t matter what the evidence says is true. How much poison or pollution or resource destruction, or ocean devastation, OR ANYTHING the universities created does; WE WON’T CARE. TO HELL with you.

Universities say: DOESN’T MATTER; our experts will not believe. Doesn’t matter what the evidence says is true. If our fire consumes the oxygen we need to breathe; YOU CAN’T PROVE THAT, “UNTIL it happens”. Which will be too late to change.

Universities say: DOESN’T MATTER; our experts will not believe. Doesn’t matter what the evidence says is true. About genetic mutilation of nature/ about igniting atoms on fire “just like the sun” here on earth. WE WANT TO PLAY god too/ to hell with the consequences; “our cult leaders” cannot be wrong; after all they are just human. SO THEY CAN’T be wrong; because WE BELIEVE.

Universities say: DOESN’T MATTER; our experts will not believe. Doesn’t matter what the evidence says is true. Population control DOESN’T matter, until WE ARE cannibals.

Universities say: DOESN’T MATTER; our experts will not believe. Doesn’t matter what the evidence says is true. If all the other living things die: BECAUSE ALL THAT REALLY MATTERS IS “ME”. So, “dig a grave”/ because I will never know; according to universities. Eternity however “has a different view of life”/ because every living thing is a miracle humanity can never know/ only as is the meaning of Satan worship; to kill it all. Because you would not care.

And a few thousand more; because you chose it to be true.

No, I have no desire to lead you, at all!

You failed, and the best we have to hope for: is to survive, by change that is dramatic enough to make a real world difference; to life.

As for life in me: if a book is created from this and the other websites I created/ it will be because; the work is then saved in print. Rather than paid for on the internet. Relinquishing internet presence soon; because you did not care enough. It is a reality of many decades of work, and many “tens of thousands” of dollars; put together because this world is dying. And I would not let that happen without a fight.

Nonetheless; there is a limit to what I can do/ and if in the unlikely event there are book sales to be found. The money collected will simply offset the costs of what I have paid. It has been free to you/ but not free for me. Cost of a book is five dollars more (to me), than it costs to deliver. Whatever that is; amount of books bought decides the price.. The purpose remains: this world cannot die/ but done is done, for me. And I cannot save a single life; simple as that.

Apart from that, it is simply stated; comments were abandoned because “the robots” took it over. “that is what email advertising does.” Friend requests on social media; were not responded too; because the foundation of it all is: please communicate with others, not me. That is the purpose of the work, and end result of “my lifetime”, it should be respected, as for all; not for me. Best wished to all who remain alive inside…….”your turn now”.

As for you, the human world largely animals; because you want what you want/ more than you respect the miracle of life given to you. The constant is: BELIEVERS WANT what they want; and reality does not matter/ truth does not matter/ consequences do not matter/ the cost of being wrong does not matter. Because the believer shuts the door to all these things; screaming: “I KNOW/ I KNOW/ I KNOW, all I need to know”. Therefore as screamers do throughout time; they align with what they want/ but as today, those who scream actually want what they scream against. The reality is they are hiding; and will easily change sides; as men have always done. Or in the world today: in this USA, they all want to go back to FAR LESS COMPETITION for everything; as was in fact better. But you made the decision not to care, about anything; and the result of that is extreme competition, and the endless flood of immigration from all sides; taking what you need for themselves. The solution of men is as it has always been: WAR, let’s kill them/ and take their stuff, women and all. But today world war means extinction with weapons of mass destruction; because no matter how you look at it: “kill a billion people/ and there are still 8 billion more to go”. War is dead/ or becomes: your cause/ your choice; of hell and its extinction. Simple as that.

The answer is: stop believing in universities. Demand evidence not beliefs of experts. Enforce the law on leaders. Take control over life on earth WITH LAW YOU CREATE AS A WORLD DECIDING FOR ITSELF. Limit the competition with birth control. Set boundaries for income and property per person; no exceptions. Let people be free/ but enforce the liberty to say: YOU are killing us all, by destroying life on this planet or its ability to support us all. Stop the insanity of universities “know/ play god/ lead/ or anything else they do”. Because they are not gods; just former classmates, who did not want to grow up; and expect to be paid for absolutely nothing of value. A few contribute, but not many. A few earn the right to be called Satan disciple; but not many. Most just want AN EASY LIFE, with power and pride; which they stole from those who did the work. WE MUST EXAMINE AND INVESTIGATE THE TRUTH OF OUR EXISTENCE/ OUR WORLD. And become people who think for themselves; so we can vote/ rather than believe. (not a religious statement); a cult reality of universities lead.

You believe media; even though they are your enemy; distracting you/ not warning you of anything. They speak for the universities who tell them what to say/ or the powerful who tell them; to stop democracy itself; and obey as with covid.

Our existence depends upon this earth, and the choices we have made. Consequences are real, and while they can be delayed; they cannot be turned away. So like it or not: humanity must change. Want it or not; your behaviors must change. Or you will soon be extinct. It is that simple; and as have been the last fifty years: “you want what you want”/ screaming to hell with the consequences; WE WANT what we want. But that is dead; you went too far. Today you will accept what truth demands; or you will die for an eternity.

While it is clear “I apparently do think differently than you”/ it is also clear the evidence of your lives is real, and cannot be discarded without killing yourselves. The choice is yours.

AND ALL SCREAM: I WANT EASY/ GIVE ME WHAT I WANT; AND MAKE ME RICH!

While the world itself screams back: that day is dead/ and you will soon be dead too. “without true change”. The game of humanity is over. One final choice is left.

How do I know? “look at your own evidence”.

EVEN THE TRUTH OF MUTILATING NATURE.

EVEN THE TRUTH OF PEOPLE TRYING TO IGNITE ATOMS ON FIRE.

EVEN THE TRUTH OF AN ENTIRE PLANET, ON THE EDGE OF CRISIS; one tragedy, after the other; all of which spell EXTINCTION without end.

i did my job/ you have failed yours.    WAKE UP,  OR DIE.

As with me, long ago: unlike people with guns/ YOU CANNOT simply demand change. Those merely kill themselves, along with others.

INSTEAD reality demands that you prepare, and organize, as soldiers do for war. Defining law, and the realities that make a difference so you can present the law; for a vote. Creating a foundation upon which the others can participate for life. Because “one” cannot change the world/ but all of us working together can. As for JESUS changing the world himself: the answer is, “you nor I”, is Jesus. We can only learn from him, as is his legacy. As for time: you are just like me: EVEN THOUGH the universities experiments can end life itself at any time: WE MUST depend upon the time needed; if we work for our world. I accept time will be given; if we do.

EASY nearly always ends with a trap. Do not search for easy as universities do.

SEARCH FOR TRUTH, and let truth guide you to what needs to be done/ as life itself allows. Because no matter how much you may wish to change what needs to be changed: LIFE DECIDES, not you. YOU, as with me; can only do the best we can, with what we do have. No tears allowed, for what we don’t. Life decides by our truth.

I suppose; just one last time. You can come here to work, for life and world/ not play. Paying what needs to be paid as is realistic to do; for life and world to survive. I will help if asked honestly. But the end result is: “strictly for women to write the law” that will then govern our world/ if the world chooses it by vote; of we the people.

Nothing is here, but a minimum of “short term (like, clamp together freezer boxes) structure and short term utilities can be set into place quickly; and it will take you that long to organize into what you will then become. You do have to pay to place and remove them. Along with lost revenue and taxes; etc.

Commercial freezer boxes; come with floors, insulation, and steel sides; and can be taken down in a couple hours to be moved & resold. But there are other options for you, as well.  it is however up to you; to keep the filth of government; from seriously interfering in what is functionally; “simple”.

NO FRILLS, just work can be found here. But if you want frills, that would mean the work is not that important to you; and is likely to fail. Please feel free to choose any other location; “with or without me”! Here is 51 acres of farm ground, and not much more. Those who wish to lead; must devise a plan, and create the necessary solutions; no matter where you go. I will commit to five years here; if it is necessary.

Done correctly; it will not be changed for “a thousand years”; and if it does, that is for all to decide.

Consider the options carefully; if you do anything at all.

My address is; 2191 county road 2500 E St. Joseph IL. USA kindly respect that!

That concludes: “everything I could have done”; as male; for life and world..

when this site goes down, in a few months; that offer is rescinded, and will not come back.

My life has changed; it will not be the same. And that includes this work. “more”, I do not know.

 however: Or more simply: the spiritual world of female has taken ownership of me; I have no idea why/ but it is absolutely clear, “step outside the lines”, and she could literally “melt my socks off” or more. The consequence is; “male is dead”, and she; “being on the inside, she knows everything, controls everything, and never listens to me”; doing whatever she wants to do. I am a tool or something? Not a clue, never my plan; a complete surprise. Believe it or not. After 20+ years; I know, there is no escape. Simple as that.

She is in charge, and I (the essence left) am not. WHY, tell you? “not really a choice”. its a quagmire.

Or, put in another way: “when the spiritual truth of male in me, and the spiritual woman who invaded me: entered the eternal home of life itself, and left this world”. All balance ended, and what is female “somehow” remains? “beyond me”? Nonetheless, we all die somehow? I honestly cannot say; “female”? Its beyond my comprehension; but it is not beyond the body left to us both; so who knows; what now? Perhaps she does/ but we do not. She doesn’t share that. ITS COMPLICATED!

But proven true: male is basically, “a dead horse/ whip it all you want; but it still won’t get up; cause somehow he is dead; even if his body is not”. That, is not complicated; just unlikely; and I cannot change its truth. ?????????? who knows? Freedoms lost. I don’t know why? He did do, “everything he was allowed to do”. but, it is not a penalty, just different.  “an excuse” for you/ a distraction/ a reason to doubt?  not a clue. it just is. 

Even so; YOUR decision does not include me: it is life or death of this world; and that is not a game; and you know it is true.

As for eternity in me or for this life? Not a clue. How can female be alive in this body of male? Not a clue. How did this “fantastical description of life” come to exist? Well that began with the prophecy of biblical revelation 12; “delivering a new life” to you. But then it became revelation 17: 3 and somehow, I represent male throughout history as a beast he was. NOT ME, but male was that. Not a clue why me?

Nonetheless; it is absolutely clear by the evidence of your own lives; THIS IS A LIFE OR DEATH MOMENT for all living things on earth. HUMANITY WANTED to play god, and set about doing so; as is the evidence of every threat to “living survival”. So now you have to choose: “till death, with greed and gluttony; OR a return to life; by law”; and letting truth decide; want to or not. I guess I am some kind of example to men: NOT going to be the same. Or something? No clue.

BUT it won’t be the same for women either; and maybe somehow (Not a clue), their own combination with men is going to change too? NOT A CLUE, really?

What is clear to me is “its a strange life”/ I don’t know how to live it? But I do know how to learn, if time and truth allow. “not everything”; but “living ugly” should not be a great problem; I have spent decades alone. There has never been a day; when I did not believe women and men are equal; still do. The world however is in love with ridicule, and I am “an easy target”.

 

ONE LAST TIME; “I am NOT, nor have I ever been “homosexual”/ whatever this is: IT IS LITERALLY, between the female world and I”. no male/ no pretend male/ no pretend female; NO sexual perversion of any kind. Any male who comes for that purpose of sex: will enter Hades. Leave me alone/ this is no game! If there is to be something sexual between female and I; is not up to me. Somehow, I am no longer in charge; and she refuses to tell me anything. Common simple interchanges between male and I; remain NORMAL, and bear no costs other than what business would be. I tell you in advance; so there can be NO EXCUSE of any kind.

Understanding life, is not necessary; “it is, what it is!  Understanding self is, because choices matter. And as I begin to understand this new direction to life;   I accept my own “freedoms will return”.  Exactly how, is a mystery.   but it is not a choice, or a plan, or a game, or a purpose. its just a truth; to be dealt with as honestly as I can.

Unfortunately, my life has become a quandary: “different to the point of surrounded by things I do not understand”. No direction left; not a clue? Just hoping for the best. Can’t seem to get past it? Nonetheless, life is life; a blessing of possibilities. Different, to this extent; however, is a quagmire.

Being available to the universities; for their experimentation on me is not happening/ any more than their discussion of fact, not fiction is going to happen on evolution, fusion, spending the nation into bankruptcy, insurgency in every form of democracy; or any other element of fantasy rules life; by universities design. “just so you know”.