Pregnancy

Life, refuses to leave me alone; and “the woman in me” demands I will continue becoming “an open book” of living/ regardless of my consent. But there is no value in trying to oppose her; “she won”.

So, for whatever it is worth; I guess for conversation to someone: the element of pregnancy confronts me, as a reality of living. Even though it will not be me; life constructs a need to discuss the possibilities anyway. But the beginning of female order, has finally arrived; and I must deal with it; want to or not. The biggest element of order so far is clearly tits; and although I have been instructed “when they were new”: I did abuse them; and she made is absolutely clear: NEVER to abuse them/ and I do, remember that lesson well

Today;  The element of something more exists, within the living of female; and its order and disciplines which are aligning to prove “something more” now in me. So pregnancy it is; because I know that part of order, and disciplines, and living as female; has to be here somewhere.

Nonetheless; since I cannot truly conceive of that/ there is enough left of male; to conceive of that side; and make it known. Not by order or disciplines; but simply as a concept of life.

PREGNANCY; is the demand for money, time, and structure. Every part of being pregnant requires housing, attention, considerations, food, and “special needs”. Not only to complete the pregnancy; but to accomplish the care and required sharing that is demanded by a child in motion. When the child is born; “it can be said men become pregnant too, at that time”. While women do all the work of preparing a child to be born. It is men who are needed to do a major portion of the work of caring for that child when it is born. Such is the demand; and I avoided it throughout my life in time: because this work, (a world dying) required all my efforts.

Unfortunately, young women have no grip on the amount of truth in life; required by this commitment; and do whatever they can to become pregnant, thereby forcing male to make a decision “for me/ for us”. As their method most common; to insure they will not be left alone/ once leaving their parents house. Young men, have no clue about all the lies, manipulation, controls; everything that women do; which includes “I am pregnant” even when they know they are not. Although when young fear can override truth; and the consequences of choices made/ can cause major stresses to form. In their search for a lifetime assembled by the fear of being forced to provide for themselves. It is a social failure, in so many ways.

The question however is: WHAT IS FAIR to the child that is born. Society then demands medical care, transportation, “diaper duties”; and more. All of which end freedoms, and apply a need that will not go away/ unless you walk away, and leave that duty to life behind; for someone else. So in the real world; while women are the only ones pregnant; and men provide “only the key” to start the process. It can be said of those men who participate in child care: that they become primary to the process of raising that child. Unfortunately men have no real clue; what pregnancy actually means to women; before/ after/ during; its all a mystery. And will make mistakes, hopefully none serious.

It is noted: that not all men abandon children/ or teenagers. Because women force them out/ or ask them not to return; and that is the end in most cases: for a wide variety of reasons. Women lie as do men! The consequences of that can be serious.

So lets go beyond what men and women do: to the consequences of what women do: which is today, they can get pregnant “by shopping for sperm”. Which some men offer, because they want children without a price apparently.

The foundation of that, has failed life today. Because the end result of its existence is: this world is now OVERFILLED with humanity/ and we all must make concessions to that fact; want to or not. Or more distinctly, while it may be considered an acceptable solution for some: it should never be that more than one/ certainly not more than two; should ever be attributed to “male or female”; in any situation. This is a finite planet; and we are growing at roughly one hundred million more mouths to feed each year. And if you look, and say “no human here”/ OTHER LIFE needs that space or they die; etc.

as for sperm donation; it is a question of values/ even if the future is bleak today. Discarding that: the real question is do you want a child of your own linage to be born; when you will never see them at all? I consider that to be no/ but it is a choice. And women who want a child but found too many men are liars, etc; or failed the competition in one way or the other; many could be said to deserve a child. So the question becomes: if you are done looking/ and if the constant of stalking men for pregnancy has not worked. Is this sufficient cause to accept “we never knew each other as well”/ because shopping is not sufficient for a mate. Only love will do.

Then the question becomes: does man, have any real world right to refuse a child to a woman (under the age of 40/ over the age of 30_) in need; who otherwise will probably not have children? The first part of that is NO; if you will charge me for you to have that child for the next twenty years; I do not need to participate with you. The second part; you are going to demand of government that they participate with you and support the child for the next twenty years for you to survive. Here too the answer is probably not; because demanding of everyone to support you and your child is more than they owe to you. But the question of value, in a woman who is lonely and in need of company; as is a child; struggles with that loneliness, and could end in suicide. OR return to happiness if things go as planned. Here the issue is truth, because truth demands that a child WHICH IS SAFE, in that situation; honors both lives/ and can be said to be “worthy of an intervention”. But there again; nothing is free/ and when you know each other; the demand for sex and participation in other ways will always be close by. It is a decision, based upon what life and living will allow. How much are you willing to risk/ and what will the rest of life be like for each of you. Because it is a decision that alters life, and there are consequences for every truth. And nobody should be allowed to run from that/ bearing in mind: people do change their mind; or “things change” is always a cause. The reality of: “we cannot go back” is a cause. Because once you have entered into a sexual relationship/ or especially had kids together; everything has changed; and there will be chains, and tears, and heartache. Even lives have changed, and for that cause I walked away from situations; which would have led to “choose”/ no more of this: or that? Because life has entered in. so to keep life out, in order to create the quest for “sustaining a living world (most important to me)”; choices were made.

In the real world of pregnancy in this day: real world solutions for not having a child before the age of twenty five should exist; as well as more. The world is full.

We then look at “donor dads”; and ask the question, CAN anyone pick a sperm donor based upon the illusion of what information someone provides? The answer is largely no; because as families present: while genetics provide a base for human development. The real child could present a wide variety of factors; some expected/ some not.

Even so; not knowing “other lives”; we will look at my own information, as an example. To determine what does this mean? Something you decide; as I am not volunteering “children”/ in this crisis of life on earth; which soon no one will want to live in/ unless real change exists.

Nonetheless: we look at reality first. Born with primary immunity deficiency/ now known to be a probable result from not being breast fed (it contains materials to aid in immunity). I spent the first 7 years or so, repeatedly ill so I am told. The next twenty or so was very healthy, and sufficiently robust to allow me to believe “there are no real limits physically”. Then came the search for “spirit” which resulted in: I found that gate/ and was assaulted by what I did not know. As is: a choice that had not been made: which was, “are false teeth (knocked out in grade school “basketball”). A violation of the temple GOD gave to me? The image provided was not in charge; but I was confused and did not know what was true? Did I contaminate “the temple of me”/ or did I not? I chose to “not take any chances; and knocked them out: to be on the safe side”. A BAD choice; as reality would prove: WE ARE THE ENTIRE OWNERS OF OUR BODY, and whatever we do to it; is our own decision. “not a temple”/ a house we live in; by our own decisions. So I failed, “was called schizophrenic (they don’t know)”/ but learned: the key to entering the spiritual world is: EVERY TRUTH/ EVERY QUESTION; MUST BE ANSWERED FIRST. Discarded the deception; and prepared. There is no such thing as maybe or safe or things such as that. So a year later having cleared out the “trash” so to speak: I entered the spiritual world again/ and made no further mistakes. It was highly valued by me; and offered no other elements for others to intervene. But both of these things are cause for “removal” by most/ and I do understand that; because it is serious.

After that death of my 9 month nephew “harshly”; caused decisions which became a serious tinnitus damage/ which changed my life and living entirely; an outside cause/ not an inside one. Apparently finding that stressful; but believing I could choose to be “all physical instead”; turned into a blood clot, that also changed my life; and kept me contained in isolation; as reality set in. learn being all that was left/ caused me to learn. The courts being “the law is an army of its own”; I entered there, and demanded redress/ which they refused, due to power and pride. But few are willing to understand the demand for redress is democracy not just trying to be “contrary to what others want”. So that too is a major element of “not him”.

After 30 years or so/ the blood clot moved and tried to kill me again; but I survived; and life is in fact considerably better since that happened. But then a tiny needle with a bad infection on it; took over 9 months or so to resolve with antibiotics. A tragic thing but I survived it; and am well today. Easily considered “not him”

So we end with; “didn’t make much money/ busy with other things”. Easily considered “not him”. But the end result of this work is: an invasion of female, overthrowing male; as has been reported. “CLEARLY not him”. And the consequence of that is: a complete surrender of genetics to “who knows what exists now”. As would be; “surely not a good idea”/ no real world genetic expectations are available; and every child needs “all they can get”. So “not him”. But even with all that, and at 72 years old (not him); the end result of my life in time is this work; and it does elevate some elements of knowledge to real world understanding. So who knows, “could be/ if you take a risk”.

Summary is: that we cannot really know, by a few words what someone else is like mentally/ and there is no guarantee for physical abilities either in the form of male or female. And in the real world; I would only depend upon love as the answer. Because everything else is less. While love is not a guarantee either; it remains as with marriage; the only proof of truth, that brings trust.

Hopefully some degree of value exists for you?

At time passes; I have begun to realize that “her tits (came with her) have begun to be me”/ and I:  have begun to be her; through these things. Whether there is some sort of new chemical hormone or not; is beyond me/ I don’t know. But elements of change are here; and order has become an increasing knowledge “this is female/ over all”. The disciplines which acknowledge and protect that; are here somewhere too/ although I cannot recognize them yet. It is, a strange experience; “different”.

I don’t know what it is, but something important, has changed? I can feel it.

The question is of course: “just how female” is this going to become? Because it is clearly not complete yet; but it is also clear “order has begun”.  I don’t know the ending of it.

So, we now begin to ask: WHAT is the difference between love for male and female? The answer, is not yet fully formed, but may lack male influence altogether, once it is. No, I still don’t know why?

PREGNANCY however should not be finished without reminding everyone: STAY WITHIN YOUR OWN GROUP! Not because there are not “beautiful women in every shade of every color” (I suppose men too). But because the competition is vastly increased when you cross the line. And that leads to hate, loneliness, violence, and every form of failure society exhibits. Because nature has built into itself; a balance between male and female in each group (before university Satan; tried to curse it). And when there is a balance; people that lost out the first time around, find their partners the second time around; and that fills the gap so that all can be “happy as we can”. Increasing that; allows the prettiest to take one, and throw them away/ to take another one, and another, and another; and just a few get divorced multiple times; because the increased competition allows it. Which causes great unhappiness to stir/ which becomes pride and prejudice and rape. Which becomes a war, and a failure among all groups.

That does not mean; everyone must comply; because real love exists beyond similarities. But statistically “mixed marriages fail more often than any other”/ because different is in fact different; and we don’t agree on what is important. Your child will suffer for it, more than is necessary. “wishing does not change the world”. And the curse of university trying to make everyone look the same, by mixing us all together; is as it always is, “they want just one thing/ so they can enslave that thing, ridicule, alter, destroy: easily”. That is of course “what robots” are for.

Time is, “the meaning of our lives”/ granting to us the existence of an environment within which we become who we are; by choosing our own truth. The identity of our life is simply: what time will prove is true.

Love however is not conceived by time, but by truth, and its passage beyond self, into the intimacy claimed by soul. The heart lives in its rhythms; while the distance we exist explains the passion we embrace; to share and care, by conceiving of trust.

Hate destroys trust, and uses lies to deceive truth; making all things bad/ as best it can. Love and hate do not have a relationship, and any amount of wisdom will leave hate behind forever. Family being the only exception; wherein separation is required.

. what is critical of our environment is: that we do respect the value it brings to our experiences and expressions of living. We can bring love in. we can express that love in “a thousand different ways”. But we cannot alter the existence of want; by any other method than simply saying: want is not allowed here.

Humanity however does not hear that; and continues to want, until hate transforms it into revenge or violence; the cost of not being chosen, by the one who wants you.

Even so: want is not enough, even if belief finds a way to make it so. What we want is what we want. Truth however decides for the living; what life will allow. Or more clearly: the destiny chosen/ or the fate of consequences as truth demands: are delivered to life, by your choice. Therefore what we choose must enable our choice of a destiny worth doing/ or it will disable that choice; and life or living will be altered in more ways than one. To understand truth, is to accept every truth has a consequence. Want is not a truth, it is the reality of “being animals” instead of alive in the rhythms of a heart; which demands, my soul must do this.

Want is a disguise, followed by deceit; which intends to alter or manipulate/ tempt or control “you”. The end result of that is not “truth decides”/ but self decides; and the prize of doing that, can be “a trophy”. But it is not more than pride lives now/ or the consequence of pride which is power exists now, and will judge you. To believe is to want what you want; and in that format of time; the purpose becomes “how” do I get what I want? The list of behaviors, and the drama it causes are very long; and always ends with tears. Even so; sometimes we must cry. Because the heart knows if we belong as one. People look for love as want/ but it is not so. Love expresses the bounty of what we share, by defining how we care for each other; as if there was no difference at all; between you and me. Respect finds the discipline to say: my love exists for you. And order will find in intimacy, a grandeur beyond this world.

Few are able; because it requires: ‘the end of self/ so that we can travel in spirit to the certainty of a home beyond time.”

LIFE is the measure of who we are! There is no game, “that is only for animals”. But the measure of a life has parameters, and competition. Purity is the boundary, and truth describes its limits. So the value of your soul, is defined by what you have chosen.

My life chose “disciplines and order” for the living of it. While I do not remember what those disciplines or order as applied to male were. I do remember disciplines ruled my existence; for the purpose of a purity that would seek value, by truth.

Today, I find in change of me: that a new order has been found “In female”/ but I cannot conceive of the disciplines required to be female? Which makes the passage of life, an environment of self instead: to understand first what does female mean? And I still have no conception of that as a truth. It is a million mile journey, and I have only just begun.

BUT you too have a journey beyond your comprehension; which is to survive the choices you have made. Which like me; REQUIRES you, to be different.

Alas: while I work/ you sleep, and time disappears.

Remembering the spiritual interference above of questioning: “do we own our bodies or is it a temple of GOD”?. That decision to compromise; then became, as a result of trying to be “not wrong”: “as one person put it/ while I was walking back”; that guys been raped. And to a greater degree he was correct. I recall a much smaller incident occurred first in this endeavor to find life itself; which was “mentally frozen; did not know what to do”; simple as that/ did not know. Which became the need to know. Which when confronted as above; while nothing the aberration said before this moment was accepted; being again confronted with I do not know. Changed that! Because life is a gift, and as a gift are we entitled to complete freedom, or required to retain a level of completeness that honors the work of a body built for us; as individual life? It was a question; and instead of answering/ or setting aside; with not enough information. I chose to mediate the cost of being wrong, by offsetting it with compliance. Even if it is wrong/ better not to make my Creator angry. WHICH WAS WRONG. But trying to avoid the worst that could happen; left me battered and bruised and separated from life; as if raped. In the search for understanding female; I do recognize today; trying to minimize the worst that can happen; is rape/ not compliance. When faced with two conclusions; both of which is awful/ and should not exist. Trying to choose the lesser of two evils is constant. However as it was for me: that actually caused the entire incident to occur. Or we must all face our own fears/ and accept the reality of being wrong: rather than trying to avoid the cost, with some form of sacrifice. Sacrifice will never turn out well; as was proven to me several times. Nonetheless rape is no game; and those who do it are wanting chemicals as is addiction. Using you/ forcing you; makes them the enemy. And enemies already have decided; if they are going to kill you or not. Few will change their mind; because if hate exists/ that judgment has already been made. Predators however “want what they want”/ and if they kill you they cannot have it; so the game is defined by you; if you fight. “worse or worse” is the truth. You can be prepared: with chemicals that drive them away/ or doing your best never to be in a situation that allows you to be surprised.  the constant curse of human failures; makes that hard. Or if you can; clearly judging “hate or animal”; so you know, is preparation. Or as is evident with me: to know your answer in advance/ no matter what the question is; conceives of proper preparations: so that the choice has already been made, and panic or fear (tragic) shall not make it for you. Schizophrenia is fear; finding yourself beyond the limits of time/ where all rules are different: lets fear panic and try to find an exit. But there is none, because you bring the fear with you; and it is inside. Making the spiritual world, a very dangerous place. EVEN SO; you are in charge of your own fear. Which means you are in charge of your own solution. The answer is: confront what you fear/ and accept the price for being wrong. Thereby leaving it behind. As is: I was wrong/ but I will never make that mistake again. Wisdom makes it possible! To understand self, makes it real. I benefitted greatly from the experience; learning all I needed to know; to reenter the spiritual world: WHEN FULLY PREPARED. as to teeth, they were perfect/ but life had other plans; as would be my dad loved chemicals and was always looking for mixing cups. so he nearly poisoned me a couple of times; by using our drinking glass. when confronted/ he continued (got to have something); and I turned to soda pop for safety. “problem; the acid, eats teeth”.

But a gun will rarely aid: because all predators want to surprise you; and guns fail that truth; unless you want to judge or be a killer/ by being the first to surprise; and you can be wrong. Non-lethal is not a compromise; it is an excuse. because the damage if not deadly is severe/ and you can be wrong. and all women say:  I WANT POWER (same purpose as your attacker/ you plan; same as your attacker)! Until either is accused of murder.

But as I also discovered in the above experience: the body delivers a very powerful chemical pain reliever during extreme situations. People become masochistic because of that: because they WANT the chemical so badly as to ruin their own body. Fighting back requires: NO, I WLL NOT! Because just say no is not enough.

So, it can be said: life lessons are above the norm/ and we want none of that. The end result is; you can learn, by lessons you do not endure; if you choose it.

Even so: one of the lessons I learned is: “the young experiment with all things/ and the result is: lives are changed, even forever”. That sex is never about love, but lust. The opposite is: love is truly about intimacy, and its sacred treasures shared from the purity of who we are; it is no game. “animals” cannot understand! Hearts sing only when lives cherish each other; not from want or need/ but from the truth of desires beyond time. Each knows, when love is present, because time fails to matter.

but laws have limits: they exist only by truth/ and that truth can have multiple meanings based upon the foundations that are in place. Remembering the element above wherein the law of right; was put into a question that I could not then answer. Or more deliberately the question of ownership is a serious one. While it is without doubt; not a single man or woman built the body of their time on earth: which literally does make it a gift of life herein. The critical question is then who owns the gift? We certainly cannot put anything back; and that makes it a respect for what we were given. But as a gift, the law says: it is in fact mine, to do with as I choose to do/ so long as I must accept & pay for the decisions I did make. Anything less is a lie, fabricated by want (I am god) or belief (its mine all mine) or pride (I am the superior one) or even power (I judge you/ because I can). Each of these makes the body a game; and as a game, we make the boundary of rules for ourselves. And of course people lie, cheat, and steal according to the rules they are allowed to make and enforce.

So the issue of ownership, is in fact no small thing: if a temple of GOD, for his purposes/ changing that has very serious consequences to me; A BAD decision. But if the body is mine, and it is simply whatever I choose to do with it is my own decision/ then there are no compromises, and whatever I do is as the owner. Therefore my choice.

NOT knowing which of these decisions is purely accurate; initiated my response of the day/ and “believing” it is better NOT to make my Creator angry/ was clearly the right choice for me. Unfortunately, lies are lies, built upon a foundation of lies, and for the purposes of lies as is so much of life among the “universities”. I am the owner/ and the gift of body is entirely mine to do with as I pleased; as originally expected/ but not sealed into the truth of my own identity. Truth cannot be disassembled; it can only be challenged with lies. Therefore truth won; when I stopped interfering in that truth with the fear “I could be wrong”. Or back to the beginning; to rebuild the identity of me.

So people believe that they are or are not animals; because they want whatever it is they want. Letting universities decide they are animals; is beyond stupid. But the limit of animals is: they cannot conceive of a future “beyond tomorrow”/ which means basically, thought stops here. Those people who do the same thing; and refuse to think for themselves; that life is a miracle, and there is more to this existence; than what we do comprehend. That is the dividing line, and to love is an ascension beyond this gate of limited by an animal of lust (I want what I want). Love seeks truth, and truth aligns with the purity of knowledge that elevates justice, fair play, equality, happiness, and hope. Each is an element of heart, and sings within the rhythms of value that enables us all to experience and express the purity of who we are, as defined by love. When two (balanced as male and female) are elevated by the same rhythms; they begin to rise in that purity to discover the trust which will open the door to soul. Because without trust, truth itself has no foundation upon which to build. Liars are always attacking truth, by destroying trust; and it is the fall of very many people.

We then ask: WHY must there be “life and living with ANY LIARS”? The primary answer to that is: humanity is free to be what they choose to be/ and that includes every behavior; and even the loss of life that is hate. Because the end result of living is: beyond time, eternity is real. And in that eternity, there are numerous truths that can easily destroy your own life forever. Consequently you must in order to be free: attain and sustain an acceptance of law, that cannot be wavered as wrong. Real world energy has no mercy: so you must be prepared to know the truth of law, which allows you to experience and express the realities of your own choice. As with me: the cost in time is minimal. But the cost beyond time, is forever. Far better to resolve truth now.

As for me: I spent decades “building what male was intended to be/ and achieved the pinnacle of that”. But the spiritual woman inside; has spent 20+ years tearing it all back down; having achieved the end result which is now “I feel like an empty, but cleaned [whitewashed, antiseptic; not a crumb or particle of dirt anywhere; wall to wall nothing left of me] shell of myself; outside the wall, looking in”. Excluded from my own life! Now; Waiting to see what the new owner brings in; comes next. “a different world”, all but certain; this is going to be a complete disaster, to everything male. utterly cast out; changed beyond the dimension of choice. Yet still no clue; other than choice is gone; she owns it all; and I don’t believe she is going to give anything back?

 However I consider it highly unlikely; that she puts back anything, of what was lost/ she worked hard, to remove. Which means; learning to live with whatever comes. Unfortunately, the spiritual world [life without time] does not give back anything. Once you open the door, where only truth can rule/ UNLESS you can understand the truth of what is inside; you are trapped. And while I honestly thought I could or would understand “female”/ it was such a completely different experience (not male at all); “not a chance” took over. Its complicated; but I never would have entered/ except for a dying world, with no answers in male for how to survive. That search however arrived at the pinnacle of what male can be! However It remains true: “without balance”/ the message assigned to me; for you “change or be extinct”. Would have failed. So in balance of it all; truth says, I did make the corrected choice. Regardless of what comes next?

No matter what you may believe or think is true: “for fifty years” I had fully expected; to get my own life back/ for at least a short time; before life on earth collapsed”. This is not it!

I hope, in a world of 5 billion females; that somehow, this is a good sign for you/ and the world will not die. “it is not a good sign for; life as male, in me”.

But from the beginning; the spiritual woman who invaded my world/ or I invaded hers (don’t really know). Made is absolutely clear; she was here for female/ NOT male. That remains true today. I have no clue; how anything; is going to turn out?  “completely adrift; no anchor left”.

And that includes: if you will finally stand up for life/ or let it fall into extinction.  I did do, what life allowed.

Not my choice.     CAN’T save a single one.

but laws have limits: they exist only by truth/ and that truth can have multiple meanings based upon the foundations that are in place. Remembering the element above wherein the law of right; was put into a question that I could not then answer. Or more deliberately the question of ownership is a serious one. While it is without doubt; not a single man or woman built the body of their time on earth: which literally does make it a gift of life herein. The critical question is then who owns the gift? We certainly cannot put anything back; and that makes it a respect for what we were given. But as a gift, the law says: it is in fact mine, to do with as I choose to do/ so long as I must accept & pay for the decisions I did make. Anything less is a lie, fabricated by want (I am god) or belief (its mine all mine) or pride (I am the superior one) or even power (I judge you/ because I can). Each of these makes the body a game; and as a game, we make the boundary of rules for ourselves. And of course people lie, cheat, and steal according to the rules they are allowed to make and enforce.

So the issue of ownership, is in fact no small thing: if a temple of GOD, for his purposes/ changing that has very serious consequences to me; A BAD decision. But if the body is mine, and it is simply whatever I choose to do with it is my own decision/ then there are no compromises, and whatever I do is as the owner. Therefore my choice.

NOT knowing which of these decisions is purely accurate; initiated my response of the day/ and “believing” it is better NOT to make my Creator angry/ was clearly the right choice for me. Unfortunately, lies are lies, built upon a foundation of lies, and for the purposes of lies as is so much of life among the “universities”. I am the owner/ and the gift of body is entirely mine to do with as I pleased; as originally expected/ but not sealed into the truth of my own identity. Truth cannot be disassembled; it can only be challenged with lies. Therefore truth won; when I stopped interfering in that truth with the fear “I could be wrong”. Or back to the beginning; to rebuild the identity of me.

So people believe that they are or are not animals; because they want whatever it is they want. Letting universities decide they are animals; is beyond stupid. But the limit of animals is: they cannot conceive of a future “beyond tomorrow”/ which means basically, thought stops here. Those people who do the same thing; and refuse to think for themselves; that life is a miracle, and there is more to this existence; than what we do comprehend. That is the dividing line, and to love is an ascension beyond this gate of limited by an animal of lust (I want what I want). Love seeks truth, and truth aligns with the purity of knowledge that elevates justice, fair play, equality, happiness, and hope. Each is an element of heart, and sings within the rhythms of value that enables us all to experience and express the purity of who we are, as defined by love. When two (balanced as male and female) are elevated by the same rhythms; they begin to rise in that purity to discover the trust which will open the door to soul. Because without trust, truth itself has no foundation upon which to build. Liars are always attacking truth, by destroying trust; and it is the fall of very many people.

We then ask: WHY must there be “life and living with ANY LIARS”? The primary answer to that is: humanity is free to be what they choose to be/ and that includes every behavior; and even the loss of life that is hate. Because the end result of living is: beyond time, eternity is real. And in that eternity, there are numerous truths that can easily destroy your own life forever. Consequently you must in order to be free: attain and sustain an acceptance of law, that cannot be wavered as wrong. Real world energy has no mercy: so you must be prepared to know the truth of law, which allows you to experience and express the realities of your own choice. As with me: the cost in time is minimal. But the cost beyond time, is forever. Far better to resolve truth now.

TODAY however; the critical task of understanding the consequences of change exist. “everything turned upside down/ girl not boy”; everything changed. Represents a foundation supporting the claim of balanced/ rather than “perfected”. An alteration of purity so vast as to become something else entirely: each portion human/ but entirely different in substance, truth, forces, and reality. Every truth has a consequence/ every law has a limit of essence, and a boundary line of what is fair. But change has evaded these things to become an essence of self. Or, as the miracles of life surrounding us all prove true; our comprehension of what can be; is entirely beyond our best elements of imagination. Even so; change is no small thing/ and it requires an entirely different approach to living. What now? Is an excellent question; without a single answer/ other than to say “different”. The parameters of that living have not yet been set. The foundation of change is not yet understood. Limits and boundaries of law, are not yet known. And the value of its balance to my own existence lacks the substance of knowledge; so that wisdom may follow. Changing the behaviors of humanity itself, are far less complex. You know what needs to be done/ animals however refuse, and as always hate is trying to distribute every lie, propagate every fantasy, and use every delusion to claim “we are the superior ones”; regardless of truth.

What is: “my life and living today”? I don’t know? “it changed”. And to be perfectly honest; I don’t even know how to begin. “utterly different”/ I have to find the balance of it somehow?

I guess the only real solution is to find the pinnacle of what female is; to balance the scale/ but, I don’t even know what female truly is, inside where life forms an identity.

But that, separates LIFE from LIVING, conceiving of each independently of the other. Discards every game humanity plays, so that truth might arise more simply. Identifying need versus desire, while contemplating the truth of purpose while we share the potentials of every situation encountered. All of that starts from the beginning of who values will let us be. And that begins with the decision for love, or hate. Because fear uses behaviors to hide in want or belief. So the very first thing is: to understand life itself. Separated from male or female; LIFE is the destiny of our soul, the participation of our hearts, and the foundation of our desires. But male and female are completely different; and each of those decisions must be cultivated based upon the forces which control their laws. Ultimately it is a bit like math and living; which functionally means: “everything in our world, is about weight” and how it moves, or fails to move in the translation of life by motion. The laws governing how everything is designed; becomes assigned by gravity; or is subject to our own decisions; forces us to acknowledge, there are consequences we establish for or against ourselves. By choices made.

While there are a lot of laws, order, and disciplines governing male conception/ NOT behaviors. All of which are missing. I don’t know any except the one which belongs to female; as is tits form the basis or foundation of being female as everybody knows. But reality has forced “tits must rule” here.

Where it all goes from there; is a mystery? So, I am clearly not ready for this journey, and absolutely must wait; until I am. Laws cannot be broken without consequences. An extremely unfortunate truth; in universities hands; as they continue to mutilate nature into extinction/ ETCETERA; AND so much more.

In conceiving of the truth called female; I am reminded by the one piece of information I remember about male; “freedom is important”. So I remembered “stability” as a foundation of disciplines, order, and laws governing female. Finally “step one”. Where thought becomes real.

Unlike universities where fantasy and delusion rule over living; with lies, upon lies, driven by lies, covered up by lies, theft beyond the scope of living/ betrayal to everything on earth/ and of course the constant terrorism of the dead corpses who believe they are “gods”. Nothing is so grim, as the truth of their religion: “chaos is their creator/ accidents revolve around billions of years/ and no brain at all; until men take credit for this world of life.” who is more blind; than these? Answer; terrorists who proclaim they know; but only fantasize, and delude themselves with “Imagination”.

While it is true, that the foundations of my  current existence: “are unheard of”. The elemental rise of life is so far beyond human comprehensions; that I need not defend it. More than to say: “belief is not enough”/ truth decides. Time demonstrates its truth, and as the days go by; what is real, shall become known. “its not” up to me/ I am a pawn basically speaking. But this is a predication of biblical revelation. It does not say; how that ends.

The conclusion:”male is completely defeated/ and is being rebuilt”. Too strange to describe; yet only weird; “different”. No guesses/ no beliefs/ just whatever it is. For however long it is to be. “tits” just won’t leave me alone; I guess that is how it is, when the conqueror “raises her flags”. Hoping for the best.

Oddly enough, that is the second time female has ended everything male had built; the first my ex-wife. “she wanted what she wanted; same as the rest”. While I wanted “different than the rest; searching for life”. A reality that existed because I did not wish to make any other female cry; so we both cried instead. A lesson learned. Today however; the reality is different. She is only concerned with female/ and I am only concerned with life: I guess the end result is “she combined them for me”; without my consent? Its complicated. Not a clue; I would never have guessed.

Today, I feel really odd; and am told, I have been judged by the female world; as “strictly female” now; all of it/ never to go back. No more “in the middle”; the choice has been made. How it ends, or what now, or why; I do not know? I just feel different, really different! Can’t explain it.

I FEEL ODD. can’t explain it/ ODD!

Too much noise, and my ears have attacked/ making me completely unaware of what the body itself is doing; as I just try to survive. It is doing something, “body has been unhappy”/ but I don’t know what.

A new development; my life believes I am a girl now. Mind and body want to agree; but the element of individuality argues “can’t be”. Nonetheless my reality is moving in that direction. So then “we have four distinct variables; at least”. Life is the realization of miracles; mind controls the body, and measures our existence/ body lifts the weight of our freedom, and gives it substance. While individuality confronts the desire of our soul, with love or hate; or hides in animal (no future for me). There are more dimensions of course; but these four seem to be changing. To alter the very concept of living; in more ways that one. The spiritual existence of female inside; is one of those ways; and it is the spiritual world that controls all truth.  “the end of it all: what a strange thing to say?” yet, I am not the builder of life.

Dimensions exist; because of the variables that make them exist. The body is a variable that induces existence; by transforming itself into a mass that takes up space. Mind however does not consume space, but exists by the definitions of our desire. What is true however is based upon law, and desire is not a law; therefore it cannot stand alone. Individuality is grown by the consequence of how we interrelate with law; which then becomes our truth assigned by life; to be our destiny. Sexuality is limited by the boundary lines of body. Love however is an essence of truth, sustained by heart and soul as the presence of our Creator within us; each one. Thought, the dimension apart from laws and limits; arises from here.

As for you: the human rattlesnakes are abundant now; (far different than the real snake)/ these humans want to kill, and believe their actions can be claimed as just business; when reality proves, it is the intent to destroy/ rather than help. SO, I GIVE YOU A WARNING; that your parents are facing critical times. What looked like enough money to survive on a year or two back; is now not enough; and they will fall into the pit of reverse mortgage; believing/ but its all a lie, a fraud, and the intentional theft of this entire nation that goes with it. I suggest you talk to them/ and understand their situation. Because your inheritance will soon disappear.

The greater wolf (run you down) of human decisions; is approaching world turmoil; and its decision to control the world with war. Won’t happen/ but extinction will. As to this nation: IT IS THE LAW, that only a taxing issue can arise in the congress; and tariff is taxation. Just like calling a war/ a policing action is a lie; that destroys democracy with tyranny instead.  ENFORCE YOUR LAW/ or it fails to exist! force the cowards, liars, thieves, cheats, traitors, and terrorists of US government to do their job/ or evict them all; and start over.  eviction means redress: WHERE WE LEGALLY REVIEW the decisions they claim were made for us all. WITH THE AUTHORITY TO ENFORCE OUR OWN OWNERSHIP OF THIS NATION;  “AN ACTIVE TRUTH” OF LIFE.  instead of sheep.