Life, refuses to leave me alone; and “the woman in me” demands I will continue becoming “an open book” of living/ regardless of my consent. But there is no value in trying to oppose her; “she won”.
So, for whatever it is worth; I guess for conversation to someone: the element of pregnancy confronts me, as a reality of living. Even though it will not be me; life constructs a need to discuss the possibilities anyway. But the beginning of female order, has finally arrived; and I must deal with it; want to or not. The biggest element of order so far is clearly tits; and although I have been instructed “when they were knew”: NEVER to abuse them/ and remember that well. The element of something more exists, within the living of female; and its order and disciplines which are aligning to prove “something” to me. So pregnancy it is; because I know that part of order, and disciplines, and living as female; has to be here somewhere.
Nonetheless; since I cannot truly conceive of that/ there is enough left of male; to conceive of that side; and make it known. Not by order or disciplines; but simply as a concept of life.
PREGNANCY; is the demand for money, time, and structure. Every part of being pregnant requires housing, attention, considerations, food, and “special needs”. Not only to complete the pregnancy; but to accomplish the care and required sharing that is demanded by a chrocess moving. When the child is born; “it can be said men become pregnant too, at that time”. While women do all the work of preparing a child to be born. It is men who are needed to do a major portion of the work of caring for that child when it is born. Such is the demand; and I avoided it throughout my life in time: because this work, (a world dying) required all my efforts.
Unfortunately, young women have no grip on the amount of truth in life; required by this commitment; and do whatever they can to become pregnant, thereby forcing male to make a decision “for me/ for us”. As their method most common; to insure they will not be left alone/ once leaving their parents house. Young men, have no clue about all the lies, manipulation, controls; everything that women do; which includes “I am pregnant” even when they know they are not. Although when young fear can override truth; and the consequences of choices made/ can cause major stresses to form. In their search for a lifetime assembled by the fear of being forced to provide for themselves. It is a social failure, in so many ways.
The question however is: WHAT IS FAIR to the child that is born. Society then demands medical care, transportation, “diaper duties”; and more. All of which end freedoms, and apply a need that will not go away/ unless you walk away, and leave that duty to life behind; for someone else. So in the real world; while women are the only ones pregnant; and men provide “only the key” to start the process. It can be said of those men who participate in child care: that they become primary to the process of raising that child. Unfortunately men have no real clue; what pregnancy actually means to women; before/ after/ during; its all a mystery. And will make mistakes, hopefully none serious.
It is noted: that not all men abandon children/ or teenagers. Because women force them out/ or ask them not to return; and that is the end in most cases: for a wide variety of reasons. Women lie as do men! The consequences of that can be serious.
So lets go beyond what men and women do: to the consequences of what women do: which is today, they can get pregnant “by shopping for sperm”. Which some men offer, because they want children without a price apparently.
The foundation of that, has failed life today. Because the end result of its existence is: this world is now OVERFILLED with humanity/ and we all must make concessions to that fact; want to or not. Or more distinctly, while it may be considered an acceptable solution for some: it should never be that more than one/ certainly not more than two; should ever be attributed to “male or female”; in any situation. This is a finite planet; and we are growing at roughly one hundred million more mouths to feed each year. And if you look, and say “no human here”/ OTHER LIFE needs that space or they die; etc.
as for sperm donation; it is a question of values/ even if the future is bleak today. Discarding that: the real question is do you want a child of your own linage to be born; when you will never see them at all? I consider that to be no/ but it is a choice. And women who want a child but found too many men are liars, etc; or failed the competition in one way or the other; many could be said to deserve a child. So the question becomes: if you are done looking/ and if the constant of stalking men for pregnancy has not worked. Is this sufficient cause to accept “we never knew each other as well”/ because shopping is not sufficient for a mate. Only love will do.
Then the question becomes: does man, have any real world right to refuse a child to a woman (under the age of 40/ over the age of 30_) in need; who otherwise will probably not have children? The first part of that is NO; if you will charge me for you to have that child for the next twenty years; I do not need to participate with you. The second part; you are going to demand of government that they participate with you and support the child for the next twenty years for you to survive. Here too the answer is probably not; because demanding of everyone to support you and your child is more than they owe to you. But the question of value, in a woman who is lonely and in need of company; as is a child; struggles with that loneliness, and could end in suicide. OR return to happiness if things go as planned. Here the issue is truth, because truth demands that a child WHICH IS SAFE, in that situation; honors both lives/ and can be said to be “worthy of an intervention”. But there again; nothing is free/ and when you know each other; the demand for sex and participation in other ways will always be close by. It is a decision, based upon what life and living will allow. How much are you willing to risk/ and what will the rest of life be like for each of you. Because it is a decision that alters life, and there are consequences for every truth. And nobody should be allowed to run from that/ bearing in mind: people do change their mind; or “things change” is always a cause. The reality of: “we cannot go back” is a cause. Because once you have entered into a sexual relationship/ or especially had kids together; everything has changed; and there will be chains, and tears, and heartache. Even lives have changed, and for that cause I walked away from situations; which would have led to “choose”/ no more of this: or that? Because life has entered in. so to keep life out, in order to create the quest for “sustaining a living world (most important to me)”; choices were made.
In the real world of pregnancy in this day: real world solutions for not having a child before the age of twenty five should exist; as well as more. The world is full.
We then look at “donor dads”; and ask the question, CAN anyone pick a sperm donor based upon the illusion of what information someone provides? The answer is largely no; because as families present: while genetics provide a base for human development. The real child could present a wide variety of factors; some expected/ some not.
Even so; not knowing “other lives”; we will look at my own information, as an example. To determine what does this mean? Something you decide; as I am not volunteering “children”/ in this crisis of life on earth; which soon no one will want to live in/ unless real change exists.
Nonetheless: we look at reality first. Born with primary immunity deficiency/ now known to be a probable result from not being breast fed (it contains materials to aid in immunity). I spent the first 7 years or so, repeatedly ill so I am told. The next twenty or so was very healthy, and sufficiently robust to allow me to believe “there are no real limits physically”. Then came the search for “spirit” which resulted in: I found that gate/ and was assaulted by what I did not know. As is: a choice that had not been made: which was, “are false teeth (knocked out in grade school “basketball”). A violation of the temple GOD gave to me? The image provided was not in charge; but I was confused and did not know what was true? Did I contaminate “the temple of me”/ or did I not? I chose to “not take any chances; and knocked them out: to be on the safe side”. A BAD choice; as reality would prove: WE ARE THE ENTIRE OWNERS OF OUR BODY, and whatever we do to it; is our own decision. “not a temple”/ a house we live in; by our own decisions. So I failed, “was called schizophrenic (they don’t know)”/ but learned: the key to entering the spiritual world is: EVERY TRUTH/ EVERY QUESTION; MUST BE ANSWERED FIRST. Discarded the deception; and prepared. There is no such thing as maybe or safe or things such as that. So a year later having cleared out the “trash” so to speak: I entered the spiritual world again/ and made no further mistakes. It was highly valued by me; and offered no other elements for others to intervene. But both of these things are cause for “removal” by most/ and I do understand that; because it is serious.
After that death of my 9 month nephew “harshly”; caused decisions which became a serious tinnitus damage/ which changed my life and living entirely; an outside cause/ not an inside one. Apparently finding that stressful; but believing I could choose to be “all physical instead”; turned into a blood clot, that also changed my life; and kept me contained in isolation; as reality set in. learn being all that was left/ caused me to learn. The courts being “the law is an army of its own”; I entered there, and demanded redress/ which they refused, due to power and pride. But few are willing to understand the demand for redress is democracy not just trying to be “contrary to what others want”. So that too is a major element of “not him”.
After 30 years or so/ the blood clot moved and tried to kill me again; but I survived; and life is in fact considerably better since that happened. But then a tiny needle with a bad infection on it; took over 9 months or so to resolve with antibiotics. A tragic thing but I survived it; and am well today. Easily considered “not him”
So we end with; “didn’t make much money/ busy with other things”. Easily considered “not him”. But the end result of this work is: an invasion of female, overthrowing male; as has been reported. “CLEARLY not him”. And the consequence of that is: a complete surrender of genetics to “who knows what exists now”. As would be; “surely not a good idea”/ no real world genetic expectations are available; and every child needs “all they can get”. So “not him”. But even with all that, and at 72 years old (not him); the end result of my life in time is this work; and it does elevate some elements of knowledge to real world understanding. So who knows, “could be/ if you take a risk”.
Summary is: that we cannot really know, by a few words what someone else is like mentally/ and there is no guarantee for physical abilities either in the form of male or female. And in the real world; I would only depend upon love as the answer. Because everything else is less. While love is not a guarantee either; it remains as with marriage; the only proof of truth, that brings trust.
Hopefully some degree of value exists for you?