Self

It is, elemental to the grace and truth of life, to seek the understanding of our own living. To accept the plight of our existence; as the means to construct an ending to what time has meant to each and every one: that has undertook the journey toward knowledge, that is the essence of life itself.

Within those boundaries, is the truth of my own life/ the realities of my own time; and the acceptance of my own decisions; as they do become the elemental truth of my own identity in the essence of who am I.

Of all things conceived of: “being male was easy/ I understood it completely”/ and it was my home, and I would have chosen no other. But at 72 years old now, and having entered the spiritual world of female which is now starting its 21 year from that decision. I have been utterly trashed as male, and ordered to become as female. No its nothing to do with transgender or any other delusion of fools. But it is a distinction of force, that I have yet to understand. Because male is a force recognized by push. While female is a force recognized by pull; and they are complete opposites of each other. But the question ultimately to decide if there is “female in me”/ is dependent upon whether or not, I can join the force called pull. And functionally acknowledge the elemental truth of what that is; at its core description.

I would argue that JESUS found the methods and means of participating directly in the force of pull/ and with that knowledge became a healer of humanity. Therefore his love was “strictly as male”; and his destiny was strictly as the love of male can be. Because he distinctly and deliberately chose it to be so.

Whereas with female, the foundation discipline is: to create life on earth/ by accepting it is their body of life, that will be confiscated to that purpose; even if they don’t choose it directly. So, I am trying hard to understand “the opposite of everything” I have ever been/ and failing. Even though the spiritual woman inside controls me completely now. “ten thousand electrocutions (no you can’t; go back to male)”; has ended with, “I give up”/ your choice, so long as it is basic to love.

Which brings me to the university conception of a “black hole (pull)”; the most powerful intensity of force in the universe. And its understanding is: that all resistance is crushed, and what comes out is ejected out; is elementally so smooth (a neutron), nothing can compare. So then this is the basic structure of pull in its physical sense/ but what will happen, when life is added as a purpose/ and then a desire; as is the basis of female?

THAT, is a question that eludes me, to this day? But the question is WHY, should I need to know? I have no answer/ so we turn back the clock, to refine what has been; in order to study how this has become a now foundation of living; in what is my life. An identity, displaced by its own truth.

Reality demands: that I shall not “fix anything, for myself”/ unless it is absolutely imperative to do so. The consequence of that is: I find the male world, of my own living deteriorating all around me. Nothing I can do to fix that is allowed (electrocuted to enforce NO YOU CAN’T)/ which is the end of freedom to choose. Enforced “ten thousand times”. Until finally, with resistance gone/ I now turn away. So the question is why? And I suspect, rather than know: that it is because this human world is deteriorating in the same way/ as is, without true change, nothing will survive into the future. And that is your reality, as you destroy this living world; by your arrogance, apathy, and disrespect; taught by universities for the last one hundred years. As is their intent to be gods/ by tearing down everything that does work for us, and keeps us all alive. So they can claim to be gods by replacing it with ANYTHING else. As is their current malaise of pushing people into surgery to change genders; which cannot be done. Because gender is a matter of force/ not choice.

Nonetheless, the question to me is: HOW does ending my world as male/ CHANGE what will be done in this world, by enforcing an alternate conception of the elemental construction of how we live?

It is functional to understand: that joined with male and female working together for life and world. That the primary elements of change have been documented for your world: world law, not leaders/ limited capitalism, NOT money decides/ and only TRUTH ITSELF DECIDES, not your wants. These three things are the essence of changing this world; and they will be implemented/ or humanity will become extinct. Because your evidence is; “this, as universities created; cannot go on”. It is 99% lies/ theft/ betrayal/ cheating/ assassination of the young/ and terrorism.

So the end of your world is distinctly chosen; the result of cult worshiping those who claimed, as universities, and their cult worshipers do: TRUTH BE DAMNED/ THIS IS EASY, we will take whatever we want, “from the future”; as is war on life and earth. “TO HELL” with anyone who says no. As has been, your ways and means!

The question is: WHAT does changing this world “mean to me”? Because apparently with a completely disassembled truth of life/ I absolutely must, start all living over. Its not an option, it is my reality; WITHOUT all the necessary parts and pieces which make the entire process possible? Nonetheless, I have no choice; and must begin again. So WHAT is being changed, and WHY?

The answer to that is: “an alternate completely different look” at life and living and body and mind and time itself; has been introduced to me. That is ultimately less question/ than truth. Therefore the summation of that is: life will not be pushed, instead to balance it; I must enclose it with truth.

So the question is: does that make female: “truth”? No, it does not, because female is human; just like male living in time with all the elements of choice that identify what is our real, distinct, and true desire for life? Because “eternity demands to know”!

But the critical construction of real world truth is: that want, and the conception of “universities play god”/ MUST be dismantled. Or truth cannot be found.

Therefore the foundations upon which humanity behaves rather than thinks for itself; must be evaluated for truth? Which does bring us to “love/ hate/ or animal” are the three distinct and true choices of living in time. Love and hate are complete opposites and do not “live together long”; they cannot, it is impossible. But humanity wants “love and hate”; so they found a way as animals to do that very thing. To love some/ and to hate some; but to decide by whatever they want to believe at the moment; is what living shall become. It is a balance of predator and prey, but holds no key for eternity; because you did not choose for love is life/ or hate as is death. Sharing then the same fate as an animal does; to dissipate and vanish forever.

Humanity lives in the behaviors of these next three: “want (mine, all mine)/ pride (I win/ you lose)/ and power (I am judge/ I am god, over you). Which is extrapolated into the consequences of time with “believe/ fear/ obey”. As temptations, manipulations, propaganda, lies, stealing, cheating, betrayal, hate, terrorism, and more all unfold to become the basis of living in this world of time. Because animals live here/ with only a few humans being alive in the shape of love.

The critical question to me is then: WHAT can I do to share the value of love/ WHAT will society let me do, to remove the cost of hate, with respect/ and WHY will I care, about a world which will care very little, for me: because arrogance is so extreme? The answer is: as thirty years of fighting with you as male proved true/ there is no answer here, their only solution is war. The answer is: as with encouraging and educating you with the balance of spiritual woman; for the next 12 years or so proved true/ no respect is possible in the cult of universities rule. And in these last 7 years, of spiritual woman in charge: the answer is: to prove “you, the vast majority; are all wrong”/ opens the door to at least the possibility of finding a brain. Rather than believing whatever you are told to believe/ fear/ or obey.

But WHAT NOW? As reality proves true: the cult of university worship is so severe; the human animals have all become “zombies”. Living in the dream world of a life that cannot continue. As is proven by the evidence of what you do.

The answer to that is: not even female tolerance can turn you into living humans that are being alive in the demonstration of love is the value of life. You want what you want/ and have no brain to understand: this is the road to dead.

Because apathy keeps you sleeping in the glut of bribes/ as the reality of destroying the entire planet continues just beyond the blinders you chose; to hide from your own truth. That disrespect for truth; is elementally the verdict of death; to this world. And yet pure arrogance as is “we can play god”/ is so vast and so horrifying; that extreme experimentation to prove you can be gods; does occur every single day and night. Culminating in extinction.

So as for me: I fought for you as male/ I balanced living when female was spiritually added to my life/ and female herself, as is the essence of truth defined by a force that is the opposite of male; remains as unproven, to the vile cost of what you believe is true. Death is the end: so nothing matters but you/ not even your own child. Lies but you refuse to care.

elementally then: the critical choice is entirely your own/ because no one can defeat your beliefs, other than you. The demand for evidence to prove what is true; cannot be done without you. The cost of being wrong/ the consequences of worshiping as a cult; to avoid your own truth/ and take the EASY WAY out of living. By ignoring life, to live in want. Is all you.

Which leaves us all with: my life has been given, to fighting or educating this world of life/ so that it would not die. But as with “female inside”; once the resistance has been ended: we get down to the realities of what comes now. For me, male is lost/ he is not coming back. Which leaves the quest to understand female, and accept the truth of force that pulls; if, I can completely disconnect from push. If that becomes a reality; “and a thousand more elements; from a completely different world”. Hard to say, what reality will do. But as with all elements of living; it is up to me to adapt with thought, into the truth of life beyond self.

 

But it is up to you: to change what you do, in ways that are survivable for you.

In a world or nation where everybody has “ten thousand eyes watching”; for any sign of weakness/ so they can war, steal, cheat, betray, terrorize and in all ways act and react as animals choosing hate do. Your options to “build better” are limited by the truth: men choose war/ or are forced into it, by other men. Because they want an EASY ANSWER.

Women cannot be said to be better/ but they are different; and different could be better; IF THEY CHOOSE IT PROPERLY by law and truth.

As to the coming war with immigration: it will never go away/ unless you control population increases. Simple as that/ because with over 8.2 billion people/ that means just 12 more births per 1,000 people over deaths: EQUALS another one hundred million people to feed, house, water, etc. your world of easy has ended. Your complaint: I WANT IT ALL/ is dead.

Adapt with thought, or become extinct with hate.

IF YOU WANT TO STOP; “the immigration war”/ you will need to communicate the truth. THERE IS NO MORE/ ON THIS VERY FINITE PLANET; now overloaded with people.

That means: we are facing a food crisis/ a water crisis/ housing crisis/ war crisis/ a resource crisis/ a money crisis/ a government crisis/ and everything else crisis. As the reality of UNIVERSITY KNOWS, has led by avoiding all the real troubles of this world. Because they wanted what they wanted; and that means; YOU CAN’T HAVE what reality cannot spare.

Or in more simple terms: the people at “save the children/ feed the world” must be stopped. Because they are just increasing the problems. And demanded to enforce population control or no help. Because no matter how much you want to “play Nazi”; reality gets the last say.

COMMUICATE OUR NEED TO ACCEPT AND IDENTIFY WHAT IS TRUE/ THE CONSEQUENCES OF BEING WRONG; AND END THE CURSE OF UNIVERSITY LEADS FOREVER.  or die/ your choice.

As the screamers yell [WE WANT WHAT WE WANT]; and the universities hide the truth of what they do; conspiring constantly to; steal, vomit and puke over world & life itself; the constant is: these are the people who believe they have a right: to do whatever they want to do. “because you can’t stop them”; they have declared themselves god, as proven by covid (sewer overflows/ and people eat it; because of their leaders).

But the evidence knows:

1. every time you steal; you remove kindness from life and world.

2. Every time you scream; you remove the values of society, by constricting its ability to decide individually for themselves; turning life into a herd/ not a human.

3. Every time people lie; you destroy trust, as is the foundation of peace and harmony in our relationships

4. every time people cheat; they remove the sanctity of caring or sharing/ creating a more harsh world.

5. Every time people betray each other: society adds to its graveyard, because hope dies.

6. Every time people terrorize the planet and its life: you deliberately add “satan” to our lives/ as the reality of destruction continues to add up each year; because of what you did do.

7. Every time you choose to disrespect someone else, or life itself, or our world and all its chains of survival; you choose to assassinate the future. Because nothing matters to you; but you, and what you want. As is the constant of religion versus religion; where want rules the day.

8. Every time the curse of universities lead: tragedy grows, because just like you; their purpose is to gain “power/ pride/ and whatever they want; which is to play god”, and prove that by changing life itself. Growing the sewage or plague of university delusions. The disease of “yes we can”.

I have added up, the basic truth of living among you; which is ridicule and gossip/ not value or truth. The foundations of work; not including the criminal contempt of the US patent office and their theft from me/ or hidden taxation that is inflating the currency/ or creating debts to let the universities play god. IS ROUGHLY a half million dollars of stealing, lying, cheating, and so on.

 

“is that a lot over a lifetime”? Hard to say; in a nation where greed controls theft, by hidden inflation/ hidden taxation/ hidden debts and lies and cheating and fantasies without end/ by incorporating university selfishness shall decide. and all of society SCREAMS; “don’t do nothing”/ because the bribes; the sloth of “its all free”; the curse of throwing away a world; destroying life and realities of survival:  are what they live for. Screaming “I am god too”/ hurrah for me. I proved MORE than survival; “let every child die/ because NOBODY cares”. GREED owns the world!

Which I have left behind: because the truth of it is, had I fought for your counterfeit currency/ it would have cost me roughly one third of a life time. So extensive is your filth/ the curse of your judiciary/ and the failure of your society.

So the end result is: things I would do, or could have done; have been erased. The values of life and living as is the essence of happiness and truth defined by love; are erased due to your constant curse of “university is god/ cult worship”. The authority of government, is discarded; due to the constant insurgency of universities play god; and corrupt democracy into their own thirst for power and pride. Causing the complete destruction of society and world. Mutilating nature/ poisoning the earth/ and even trying to ignite the same fire here as is on the sun; which is obviously a self sustaining atomic fire.

Which means it is worthless to attempt to find respect in a nation of zombies; as the cult of universities fantasy and delusion, corrupted your brain into believing they are more; than just plain people. With a few trinkets of very little value to life. Shame on you.

I have lived 72 years; and I can tell you true; regardless of the curse universities have been throughout that time. The people were far more happy, without all the things you believe you need today. Even society itself was happier; when democracy was real. But then came the curse of Kennedy; which was endless debts; as his decision was world war 3 “to get the power back”. Roughly 2,000 nuclear bombs exploding just due to this USA; and all that the universities cursed with evolution; even though some tiny few did make a difference. Which ultimately led; to this dying world, because you have no brain. Reagan gave control over the currency to “university owned”; and they immediately gave themselves a million dollar raise. And society SCREAMED; WE FOUND THE MONEY/ and believed they could play god too; with now garbage mountains of resources thrown away without a right. And a whole world; destroying the future, by killing the planet itself.

The list is long; and its conclusion is extinction; far sooner than you believe is possible.

So change/ don’t change, because after all you are cult worshipers; zombies, by universities description of you/ failed in every conception of a future to survive. Because like all believers truth simply does not matter to you/ evidence does not matter to you/ the consequences of being wrong, don’t even matter to you. And you refuse to learn what is true.

I did do, what could be done.

But if you have no brain; there is nothing left to do.

It is however “my new job”; to insure that you can be encouraged with the truth of change to let truth decide. Be stabilized by removing all those who claim to be “gods” from the power to do anything to life or world. To remove leaders; because the evidence has proven they cannot do it/ with value or truth: by changing to the law we the people provide for ruling over ourselves. To let the future breathe; by accepting the grace of paying your own debts; NOT chaining your own children to slavery.

But that would mean: you must stop being a cult, and stop worshiping the claim of a diploma makes them anything more than “just plain people”/ as greedy and selfish and horrifying as you. Which would mean; change you.

Pride however will attack; because that is what pride does. And you will have to decide FOR THE SAKE OF LIFE ON EARTH; or all that matters is you. Most cannot do so; because they will not surrender “I WANT WHAT I WANT; TO HELL WITH YOU/ I want what I want”. And the world will die. Simple as that.

Oddly enough; I seem to be an example of change/ want it or not. I cannot say why? But it is absolutely certain, my life has changed; and it is “female in charge” now. No going back; accept or die. Same is true of you: DIFFERENT is required/ and the only way you can be different is to remove the laws of men/ and let women try; at least they are truly different. Either way, reality knows: you cannot go back to a life by universities lead. They robbed the future/ they robbed the planet/ they robbed the nation/ they robbed your economy and businesses and sold it to hide their failures/ they robbed the foundations of life and earth; to play god; and became “Satan”. Which will describe the end of human time on this VERY FINITE PLANET. Choose better; want it or not. Regardless of fair or not; because the reality is: you cheated yourselves; by believing in the propaganda of media. By believing they would tell you what you needed to know: even though a very tiny few “rich”/ own it all. By believing in the lies of stolen money, from your own future/ your own nation or world; was enough for you as bribes made it real. SCREAMING I AM GOING TO DIE/ I WANT WHAT I WANT NOW. Yet what you did do, is throw your eternity into the crusher; and your child into the insane.

So; yes I try to educate/ yes I try to identify truth and guide you to the grace of RESPECT LIFE AND WORLD; but the indoctrination of education to believe “university is god”. Is your world. The coffin you built for your own child.

 

And all the people say: WE DON’T WANT, “to live like you”! Period. WE WANT WHAT WE WANT/ and believe whatever we damn please; because that is our choice. Our decision to live “as animals” if we so please; YOU have no say.

Yet life is life, and unless you believe death is better: it is the only choice we all have. So what is necessary, is accepted/ and what is “your want”; declines to have an influence; if it is untrue to life. Because you chose life, by truth; not belief. Suicide proves the difference. So you want life/ but life is: fully dependent upon truth/ because only truth can survive.

As for my own living: life has consistently created obstacles for me/ I have learned and moved on. I have not chosen to work for bribes and counterfeiters whose intent is to steal, betray, lie, kill, and mutilate; as have you with your cult worship of universities. Nor have I accepted; a universities diploma, is anything more than the recognition “I memorized/ I mimicked/ and I repeated” whatever I was told to believe. A few make a difference, but all the rest merely form the army of insurgents determined to destroy this nation and its democracy.

So, no; I don’t want to be you either.

But the end result of evidence is: we are faced with the conclusion of life and planet by its extinction/ because that is what you chose. Like covid: the horrors of imagination, and intentional fraud are tyranny and betrayal. Traitors to life and world.

Which leaves “not like me”/ but as truth demands of you.

For my part: it truly seems like, “I must endure everything female has endured throughout history”; before I begin to understand what female means; by its own source of force in truth. Making men; tragic to women; much of the time. Even so, women are not “innocent” of what they do either.

Change is change; it is no game. It is a finite planet/ and over 8 billion people wanting EVERYTHING they can get/ everyday/ every year of their lives; some for over one hundred years of living. MEANS resources will fail. Even you can understand that; and humanity says: I GOT TO GET MINE NOW/ before its all gone. I AM THE IMPORTANT ONE; nobody gives a damn about you.

But this Creation of life was not made “just for you”/ and the cost of you, is not enough to justify letting you destroy every other living thing on this earth. So you get to change/ or as you chose to do instead; you get to go to HELL; and take your children with you; as extinction overwhelms this earth. Is that not fair?

Oxygen is a finite element/ not made on earth. Ozone is a finite element/ which protects your life. Global warming is the end of your life/ believe it or not. The atmosphere detaching from the planet to accelerate is the end of your life. Ocean life dead; is war for food. Water to drink is war with massive consequences (blood flowing in rivers_). Mutilating nature is the end of your life; because everything we have or are; is because of nature as it is. Trying to ignite an atomic fire just like the sun; is HADES/ as will be. So is the reality of every human in time: screaming, “I WANT” it all. While those who have it scream back: NEVER.

Your days are numbered; change or die.

As to life and I; it seems likely, that I do live between the realities of life in time and eternity itself. Because the spiritual woman and I, cannot be separated; or I die. I have no concept of what may or may not be “eternity”; for me. Nonetheless, we are bound together/ and she is completely in charge of me. Which means: I cannot do anything if she says NO. Not even little things/ she knows everything.